One big problem I had with meditation that hurt my motivation was worrying whether I was doing it correctly and that I might not be getting as much benefit as I could. That all changed when I got into binaural beats. They're effortless because all you do is listen to a track with eyes closed, and your brainwaves automatically sync with the tones. The brain learns to produce deeper brainwaves and everything gradually gets better. I do a daily delta meditation, and usually theta before bed (helps to fall asleep, as well as helps creativity, and dreams!). It's been nearly 4 months with this and I can say I'm feeling better in every aspect than I was when I started. I have a long way to go, but I'm definitely more emotionally and energetically stable.

It's interesting watching the developments over the weeks and months in the mind when meditating daily.

Recently I've been rethinking why I'm here. What the fuck I'm doing and should be doing. And when I get little hints of intuition, I follow them without knowing why. Or maybe I'm just confused, easily distracted, and impulsive. I guess the difference would be whether or not it ends up helping me figure out my place in this world at this time.