“Let’s see how deep the rabbit hole goes?” I opened the editor and went after the intermittent bug that was dogging my program for a while. I was doing some technical things, but in my mind I was chasing a little animal down the hole, dug an array of additional tunnels hoping to intercept its movements, created an artificial rabbit and sent it down the tunnels, trying to understand the dynamics of its movement, blew compressed air, poured water down the tunnels and dried it with fire. I already saw the tracks of the little paws all over the place and a couple of times even saw the fat little butt with a bushy tail, but every time my trap had some sort of a crack, through which the little animal kept on slipping away. It took me quite a bit of mental energy to keep in mind the entire paradigm of the chase. Suddenly a song that started playing repeatedly in my mind had interrupted my concentration.
It was an old silly song, the same stupid words over and over. The words that I remembered since early childhood, since the summer camp, or as they put it in the Soviet Union a boy scout camp. I placed my fingers in gridlock and pulled them up and back, stretching. It was already 12:13. That meant he worked for 5 hours and change. I rubbed my neck. The stupid song was on a way of concentrating and I really needed to concentrate if I wanted to clear the program from that stubborn intermittent bug.
“It must be brain protecting itself from overloading”, I rubbed my tight neck again. “It simply sabotages the efforts required to generate an intellectual tension, the tension necessary for solving the problem. Oh, Mr. Brain - what a cunning on your part! To initiate an infinite obstruction loop somewhere in the area of the cortex, so that it would make my efforts in creating an intellectual tension, futile. And, in order to instigate this infinite loop, it pulled out that stupid, infantile, retarded song from my childhood memories. Why?”
“That loop could only be accomplished with some persistence emotional reaction. Then why did I have such an emotional reaction to these stupid words? There must be something insulting in that song, something humiliating so that it created this emotional reaction of constant irritation. It must be”
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