I'm a paradox
I want to be happy but I'm always thinking of things that make me sad
I'm ambitious, yet I'm lazy
I don't always like myself but I love who I am
I want to save money and at the same time I want to spoil myself with fancy stuffs
I crave attention but I block it out when it comes my way
I say I don't care, but I really do
I act like I'm strong but I'm always weeping on the inside
I'm all laugher and smiles, yet I'm hurting on the inside
I really need to talk to someone but I'll rather bottle it up inside
I'm a conflicted paradox
And if I can't figure myself out
There is no way anybody else can
