I remember my mother in law kept advice me to think through about my relationship. She herself have been through hell,been accused adultery during the divorce hearing. I guess she is one of a tough woman I have seen so far beside my mother.
WHY???
❤️My mom was diagnosed with stage 4 Cancer and she went thru the operation and remove her right breast. But the nightmare did not end there. The cancer sample was taken and the result is out. Its not a good news. I told my mom, "tawakal,in sha Allah".( Tawakal & Usaha.) We pray and believe that this is another obstacle and find a solution. Fight for it! Never give UP! She went for chemotherapy, she went for the operation and now radiology. Sigh
❤️My mother in law have been dealing with knee problem and lots of other sickness and was on the wheelchair, but she managed to handle all the household chores by herself. On a wheelchair!
But im guess she recovered from the pain on her knee because I heard she can drive now. But i know there will be time where all her body was aching and hurting her, painkiller is the only choices.
I read a written stories by 
I was in tear when i read that. I texted her but no reply. Because i know how the chemotherapy will make her weak. If she going for a chemo. I know how hard it is because I did my best to look after my mom since she was on her chemotherapy until her operation was a success. There is no enough sleeps for nearly half of the year, 6th cycle of chemotherapy. My mom is getting skinny and skinny.
I have decided to end the relationship with my spouse after I realized that what I was fighting to keep us together was actually killing me slowly. So i need to be better. All the hatred, all the bad things that happened to me, will be another memories for me. It will be another stories for my children once they are married. Let it be an example. Never let a mother and a wife cried. Never ever step a woman like a rug. No parents want their daughter to be treated like that, and no children want their father to threat their mother and humiliated her. I know some people can relate to my stories here. It can happen to your mother, maybe to your sister or maybe to your daughter. Whatever comes round, comes around.
Anyways, im here to write about this 2 wonderful woman that have been my inspiration,my idol. My mother in law and my Mom and being a mother myself, I know I wanted the best for my children. We all wanted our children to be happy. Thats why we can lie about food. We said we are not hungry, but let you all eat and finish the food so we dont have to question ourself whether you have eaten or not. For nearly 3 years with my husband, Im proud to say that I did feed him and cook for him, and washed his clothes and etc. That was before covid hits us.
From Aug 2019 - Mac 2020. We were both working. He always picked me up from my workplace or sometimes if i finish early,ill go to his place. I know we were happy during our 1st year together. After the 2nd time MCO was lifted, his salary was reduced to half. And Im not working. We have to move out and stay at his mom house. But my mom will always send some cash to me. Because my mom do understand my husband situation. Until he decided to quit his job and we both moved to my hometown.
Oct' 2020-Aug' 2021. We created our own business. Selling cakes and breads with the help from my mom. ( Mom already sick but we havent sure if its cancer) My mom was so happy when me and my husband were helping out and doing this bakery thing. Because that was her passion. And when she knew there's helps, she was so happy until she forgot that she was not well. Her right breast started to bleed heavily. During that moment as well I was challenge with my hypertension and my panic attack. Starting from Jan'2021 - Aug' 2021 I was in and out the Emergency, the clinic, seeing old woman (Bomoh), Perubatan Islam, just named it. I was so skinny I cant even eat. If i eat, i will vomit. Everytime if the Azan Maghrib prayer from the mosque started, Ill get to weak and I just to lie down.
That moment I know I had neglected my husband. I was so sick and i can do anything. I even cried and hoping to god,just take me ,just let me go. I cant stand the pain.
Until now, i regret for being sick, i regret that i cant look after him like how i used to 1 year ago. I blame myself. Until I was mentally unstable. I was thinking to myself, I am useless and I better d!e. I was laying down on the bed nearly 2 weeks,in silent. I only went out for food and medicine or to the toilet. I was under Major Depression and we are late to notice it.
TO BE CONTINUE
P/S: Listen to both side of the stories. 
