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I've been following the Jhonny Deep and Amber Heard Defamation Trial since day 1 and I believe most of you also had. Its quite interesting and I know most people that were in their relationship might be questioning their own experience with either their ex, present partner or maybe their future partner.
What went wrong here? When we hear that a man was abused by their gf/wife, it was quite a rare cases. I do believe that Jhonny Deep was trying to be matured to deal with Amber Heard since he is the older one. With his past relationship, he had never been accused to be violence only after he met Amber Heard.
Was she the victim? Or was she the Narcissist? This behaviour is quite famous now and I've read a lot of blog and article were sharing their opinion. So what is a Narcissist? Are you dealing with one now? Your parents, siblings, partner? Can you detect their traits?
Let me tell you that I've been in one. After reading most of the articles through Facebook, Twitter and Quora. I find it so related to what I used to deal with. A Narcissist partner. From the article that I attached above were all unbelievable true. Knowing that I was free from that relationship, I finally can see my ownself trying to stand and getting myself back to my own reality. The real me, the lost me that I found after 3 years.
It has drained my energy and spirit until I was into depression and self harm. The mental abusive is so real. You won't know until you get the treatment. I am still on medication, which is now my Psychiatrist told me to reduce the doses since Im getting better. She told me that the way I talk and my face were clearly shows that I'm gonna heal soon.
Then we discussed about the Narcissist trait, I asked her, was I in a Narcissist relationship? Was that the reason I was on anti-depressant medication? She told me it could one of the reason. So she asked, did he lie about things that I supposed to know the truth and still bravely telling others the other way around?
" He don't believe in his own religion" i said to her.
She was surprised because she knows I am a muslim.
"Then was he a muslim or converted to muslim when he married you?"She asked.
"No, he was born Muslim." I said.
That moment itself she start to shake her head and said "you are lucky that he left."
Then she start explaining. I kept on asking more about it and I really can related to what she said. Tears was running through my face when I started to remember all the moments when I have to deal with a Narcissist partner. I was blamed, I was lied to, I was called names and he knows my weakness. He knows how to hurt me by mocking and playing about my past, because that was the only way he can destroy my self-esteem.
He will deny the relationship, he said he rejected you, he will said you were the reason for any bad situation he dealt with just so you feel that you are useless. He knows you too well and he knows your weakness and he will try to use that as his shield. That moment when she explained about all the traits, I told her, I can't believe I let myself be used and believe that he really did cared. Its involving everyone around us and why he never think about others. She told me, a Narcissist is actually scared to be blame, to deal with the truth and they will try so hard to deny all the lies even if the proof is laying in front of their eyes.
Then I remembered how Amber Heard was trying to explained about her donations. She pledge as she said and still firmed to said that she did donate it even her interviews video was screening repeatedly for her to see.
At that moment , I smiled. I was accused of stealing his money and until now I'm trying to understand his definition about stealing. I shake my head and told my Psychiatrist, maybe we should stop talking about it because I was traumatize, angry and felt stupid to realize it.
She said, "that is what he tried to make you think, he want you to think that you are useless. He will try to blame you for even a small matter and you feel stupid about it."
"Did he ever say nice thing to you?"
" I am a Stage Singer and he said I am good at it but that was when we were still together, but now he said I'm just a Wannabe Singer. I was in this industry for about 20 years and he was the first person that ever criticized me about my performance."
" As i told you, he will try to make you feel useless and down so that your lose your self-esteem. Just don't let his word gets in your way with your passion".
I know he still try to destroy my self esteem, but right now, whatever happen, I am glad he left me. I know he will try to find a new punching back for him to punch his needs. But I am glad to be out from it.
Writing out about my feelings and thoughts really helps me too. As what my Psychiatrist said, only I can heal my ownself by beginning to think rationally. He is no longer in control of your feelings. Actually you have won, when you know you can deal with it. I know I did, the moment I read his summoned letter to me from the court. I realize I'm reading a false accusation and he is one big fat liar.
I realize now from a man that told me he never believe in God can suddenly said "Assalamualaikum" in 2 months after he left me. Was he scared because I told the truth about his belief? When he greet me the first time, I was like hitting a jackpot ! Was it because he repent or it just another Narcissist tactics to make you believe he's change? Only god knows that.
I am not here to judge. And if he did change his path and back to his own religion, I thank God that he have answered my prayer. But if he's playing around with his own belief and claimed to practice but he is not, seriously this kind of person will face his own karma. They won't believe in Karma. They didn't even believe in the spirits, even though it was written in the Quran or Bible. They don't believe in heaven and hell and there is not angel. I know because I have lived, slept, and ate with one.
Last but not least, my dear readers. If you know you are dealing or living with this kind of behaviour and traits, please free yourself from it. Do not let them eat your guts and kill your self esteem. Do not think that they will change, because they will not change. They just need to find another victim to feed their needs. Everything will be so beautiful at the beginning, once he knows how to break your insecurity and weakness, you will see the real Narcissist crawling out from their shells.
P/S : Do refer this with a Specialist Psychiatrist so you will understand what Narcissist or NPD is. Do not make your own assumption. Because you might be wrong.
