Being egoistic is an addiction. Most people don't realize it. It can be a destruction to their one self. Some might lose their own self. Some might end up alone. Loses few friends or maybe have no friends at all.
Egoistic is that one feeling when you know you have all the power to neglect others. About how they feel, about what they will think. Its all only about "YOU". Everything is a competition to you, but who is playing?
You can't control everything and sometimes you just need to remember that even a scrap paper can be useless after being used. I guess your past life teaches you to be hard. Or was it just one of the bad traits? It even showing how a desperado and a psychopath joined together in one small room. Its chaos! What a team. It takes two to tackle one. 馃き
Some people I've met and seen in my life were so used to be the center of attention and loud,but be careful to those who was in silence. They are the one who often clash with the shades of ego for being opinionated of what they believe and understand. I know how closed-minded they can be. I don't blamed them. Its just how they need to shield their self.
What seems to be funny was how they tried to display it. Looks like another hard work to be done just to offend others. Well,its quite convincing though, but does it boost their ego spirits? If it does, I'm more than happier to make their wishes come true. On the hand, I know that my mission and experiment had success.
I just hope from now onwards, this post not gonna triggered those sensitive soft hearted person. Being egoistic doesn't mean you are immortal, nothing hurt than an honest words. Its more sharp than a knife and can cut you through.
What if I tell you a secret that I've been kept for years? And I let it out here now? Is that an egoistic moves from me or just me playing safe? If I let it out, my ego will be scratch. So, should I? What do I get from it? Nada.
Just imaging "John Legend" sang in his song,
"Girl I know your doing the same thing too.
But I wont tell your man the things we do,oh no.
Cause he don't have to know".
Exactly! He doesn't have to know. What he don't know won't hurt him.
If he knows, then its fair and square. Nobody wins yet both losses. And again, are we in a competition? Not for me.
I can't believe how time goes by so fast. Soon when I'll be out from the shadow. There will be no more misery business. While writing this, I was listening to My Chemical Romance, "Welcome To My Black Parade". Its like the sound of victory. How glorious life can be? If you just let it be and just remember the best of it.
I would never have realized the importance of that special event and it had me moving so much faster. Now it does help me to choose the importance to listen to that particular advice. Well the damage have done and can't be undone.
Being egoistic just to win something is not worth it. But for some people who still believe that it can help them to boost their self esteem, I would be glad to cheer it for them. I'll be more competitive in the future too. But on second thought, I felt useless playing in a children playground. They even need a book to guide them.
In the end, what the most important thing for me is who gonna laugh the loudest and have all the love from the surrounding and doing things that have been their passion. That is priceless. Nothing can beat that feelings. Its just like a mixture of a sparkling dust. It even gives me more ideas on writing.
Just so you know my dear readers, this is my life and my life is for me to enjoy and not for others to ruin. Its too bad if some people seems to forget what good deeds I have done to them, I don't regret it though but I know they won't get any better than that. They are not even allowed to hurt me anymore. Nobody have the permission unless I let them be. So, stay calm everybody and remember, I am Loved By The AlMighty and so are You! Be grateful.
(Edited With Canva)
