I've been trying to work up the courage to write about sex and sexuality here for months now. Back in the day I co-hosted a weekly conference call that had a different topic on sex and sexuality for discussion each week. We began as a group of friends and acquaintances and more people joined by word of mouth referrals. It was a lot of fun. We called it "Sexual Freedom Conversations," or something like that. Do i need to specifically write that I'm not boning anybody this weekend. I'm directly responding to a requested topic...i don't know. Lots of rules.
As far as the numbers game, and especially I'm finding, compared to what is "normal" here in Paraguay, I've been with very few partners. But maybe because of that, I've got kind of vast experience. What i mean is that i stayed for a long while with almost all of the men I've been with, so we got very comfortable exploring all kinds of options.
What happened to me that i feel shy? That's a whole other article, i suppose, for another day.
Until about nine months ago, i had been celibate for about three years. That period of celibacy at the time was my ¡life choice forever from now on! and a result of sexual abuse. You can be sexually abused as a full grown-ass adult? Yeah. Now, I'm not sure if the one thing i have to be grateful for to my recent ex after these past nine-ish months, is that he woke my pussy AND my heart back up... Or if I wish they had stayed dormant...nahhhhhhhh.
But I need to get to know a few more decent people here..and especially a good man or two...like truly trustworthy and kind...because I'm back to as horny as like 25 years old. From --honestly, I don't think I masturbated 5 times in those 3 years of celibacy-- to...want Want, WANT.
What do I want? Big picture, man, no man, man but not allowed to live in my house??? I will need to clarify and work out over the next few months. In the big picture, I don't know. The specifics are easier like oral sex OR penetration. Fk that, 
Generally I would say, I prefer penetration. I can really enjoy fooling around and just playing for hours and do nothing but fool around and play...But more often, I prefer to just get it. Get to it and get it. My orgasms are easy, fast and strong...And men who are trying to impress me with going on and on for hours, bore me. Then if he's got too much on the length and it's just going to bruise up my cervix, especially if he's behind me, which otherwise is awesome...that's not my jam. Then I'd want more oral less penetration.
And oral sex is fantastic, IF partner person has those skills... Those listening skills for one thing. That unfortunately seems to be challenging for many
...That's on the receive. As I'm one who derives a lot of pleasure from being able to give, oral is great to that end obviously.
So much depends on so much tho. While sex in all it's variations can be truly awesome, I'm truly more of a mental and emotional intimacy person and maybe that's why I usually just want to fk when I want to fk and less of a production. Let's talk. Let's read the same book! Oh please let's read the same book and then talk about it. Let's walk for hours in silence. Let's do a puzzle and cook together and let's laugh. Maybe even more than making me cum, I want somebody who laughs at my goofy humor and wants to hear me blather about symbiogenesis and conjecture together over whether maybe our freakin eyeballs developed from some sort of parasitish relationship gone well...like what I was hoping to have with Alejandro here, a parasitish relationship that developed into something mutually beneficial...
I wish this photo had been taken on my new phone. It's two beautiful moths getting it on, if you can't tell.
Upon re-reading the rules, I just edited out my Spanish version and will make it a separate post. I have to say that i find that disappointing, no bilingual prayers.. But i guess.. You have some reason..
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Ok.. I am saying penetration and not intercourse......but.... Yeah..i just am.
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