Lying on the bed feeling malaise, I had no feeling of excitement, though my phone was on my hand, my phalanges busy clicking and typing, I still found no fun in it.
I just know all is not well with me but still feels I ll be alright the next minute, but as the clock continues to tick, my fear of those unpleasant hours or days seemed to be right in front of me; and it's not like I don't know what to do but i guess I wished I would bypass the mechanism and use the condition as an accessment of my immunity.
But that's by the way; I couldn't help but think why and how I have derived fun in such things before, afterall my amygdala is all responsible for them, and I guess it's still intact at this condition too or else I wouldn't have known d difference in what I had felt then and now.
Then what changed????
And I guess that is also how the soul works, the pleasures you derived when you were of the world seems to be a waste now that you have come to light.
Then what changed???
