It was hard for me to put it into words. I was trying to tell myself something without admitting how horrible it was to find out that, for a second time, my granddaughter was molested at her mother's house. I wondered if I might have done more to protect her since, the first time I told her father not to try to remove her from her mother's care since it wasn't her fault. I always try to feel guilty for everything, but this time I'm really there. You seem to have grasped the emotion of the situation even though I didn't express it properly.