Happily Broken :') | It hurts her so to love you, but she won't say good bye...

Yes, I'm hired! I should be happy, yey... but that's not my case...

I don't really know why I'm feeling this way. I feel miserable and invisible. I just don't understand why every time something good will happen to me, I don't get the chance to celebrate because something bad will also happen afterwards.

I have been waiting for this day to come, the day of our deployment. I was happy upon knowing that we'll be deployed now in schools and even happier to know that I wasn't assigned to teach in the island.

Well, as SOP, we need to comply with our requirements before going to our assigned schools. And so, I immediately processed all the requirements needed . Getting the requirements is not that easy. Aside from the expenses, I need to go to one place to another, suffer from falling in line that's quite long plus the warm weather... Ah, it's really tiring!

I wanted to have someone to talk to just to forget the feeling of being tired but I wasn't able to find that someone even thru text/chat. :3
I then realized, someone's getting a cold treat towards me. I've noticed this someone doesn't feel like texting me anymore. This someone's long responses to my messages before are now gone. I don't really understand why this someone became so cold to me. I have been nice and patient towards this someone even though this someone has mood swings.

I just realized lately that I've been suffering from this someone's insensitivity. It may be just self-inflicted pain but the fact that our sweet chit chats with each other are now gone really hurts. This may be childish but I'm just a human.

   It hurts her so to love you, but she won't say good bye...

Haha! Sorry dear Steemians if I'm posting something like this but I just can't find the inspiration to write something worth reading. Anyways, thank you for reading up to this point. :)

Be blessed some more, Steemians! :)

-marysent