Struggling with God is sometimes really necessary. Never take it as a punishment but see it as a challenge. Sometimes we need to be destroyed so that the strength and the gifts that were given unto us will be awakened. It is in moment like this that we are given the privilege to choose what do we want to happen in our lives. You choose either you continue focusing on that dire situation to change instantly to what it was before (so you can go back to the things that you we're so used to) or you let the past be buried into the deepest corner of your memory, even if doing so means another suffering (so you can be able to continue onward and leave it all behind).
Don't forget that you are holding in your hands the responsibility for your own life, including your own happiness. You were given the most wonderful blessing the Lord can give: the freedom to choose and act on your desired destiny. What will happen to you would be all because of the decisions and choices you are going to make along the way.
Unfortunate situations do happen. Some are unavoidable while there are those that have existed because of the choices we've made. We can even discover the reasons behind. Think of the other way around how would life be if it didn't occur, or just simply find something or someone to blame. But none of these matters. It happened, so be it.
Try so hard not to focus on the negative feeling. You became weak because you have forgotten how strong you are. You decided on being compassionate instead of just being firm in faith. You know the choices but you choose not to choose because you're afraid to make a bad decision.
Rise and prove that your struggle has a meaning and purpose.We grow because of these sufferings. Even in the worst circumstance, continue onward. The Lord desires our obedience. But there are also cases where He wants to challenge our will and test us to understand His love for us.💕