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This weeks prompt is terminal and the question is
You find out you're becoming an unexpected parent. It wasn't planned. You're not even married. Would you decide to have the baby or would you terminate it? Give us your reasons.
I don't want t imagine that a heart-wrenching dilemma faces me in our world that's so unfathomable. A world where one's life can hang in the balance, and you're to make decisions of one's misery.
So in a context that my world has been devastated by the painful truth of a terminal disease afflicting both my beloved spouse and our adored child. With the merciless and never stopping tick of time bringing us ever closer to the edge and I'm faced with an unfathomable choice: "rescue my marriage or save my child?"
Despite the fact that it will absolutely feel like the weight of the world has been heaped upon my shoulders, I've still got a ray of reason that shines through the darkness.
My first instinct will be for me to save my spouse, my dear wife. Let me explain the underlying reasons for my seemingly inexplicable decision.
First and foremost, I made the decision to save my marriage out of pure unselfish love for our child. I totally believe that a child deserves to be raised in a loving atmosphere, surrounded by BOTH parents' unconditional love and care. Children deserve to bloom and grow in this hallowed area, I'm trying to lay a firm basis as to the future impact. So I wouldn't want to deny my child the presence of a mother In his or her life because I believe it would deprive them of a crucial bond, a priceless wellspring of tenderness capable of shaping their entire identity. We all know that the role a mother plays in the life of a child is important.
Also the threads that weave the fabric of our life and make them beautiful are memories. Be it pieces of time intermingled with joy and grief. And these memories have been built for years with my spouse. We have woven innumerable lasting memories into the fabric of our lives over the years of our marriage. So to give up on these treasured moments, to lose the echoes of her laughter and whispers of her adoration, would be like I am giving up a piece of my own soul. Maybe I should try to start over, you'll say but the truth is, starting over, attempting to connect with another spouse, would be a very massive endeavor that time would not readily erase. Imagine building a different future while grieving the loss of a meaningful love, it is sure going to be an insurmountable challenge.
So I'll be choosing to save my partner over and over again, because with that I would also be attempting to honor or honor the special tie we share. We set off on a romantic voyage, we vowed to endure the ups and downs of life together, hand in hand. So to truly test and prove the depths of our love should be precisely in the darkest regions of sorrow. Abandoning my wife in her darkest hour of need would violate the true depth of the love we've been able to nourish and cultivate over the years, a love that transcends beyond the limitations Romeo and Juliet faced. And since it's a terminal illness I'll rather stand by her and be that tower of strength she needs at that odd hour.
In the midst of that critical situation I'll like to remind you that no decision will be an easy one because the anguish of losing a child is unimaginable, and no parent I mean no one should have to go through it.
However, I am attempting to construct a path to healing that would be easier for me, a path that will be able to recognize the bittersweet beauty of life and it's intricacies. A life where I don't have to deal with years of trying to heal or battling with the beautiful memories that are no longer there.
In a context that I have grown in love with my wife over the years and through her love I find peace, even in the face of my unimaginable sorrow. But with my child I only shared a few years of love. As my world dims and my choices flicker before me, I prefer to choose and hold tight to love I've known for years. My wife and I can have babies later. Babies that wouldn't have to know the love of a father alone but love from both parents.
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