A Story about The Sun and The Moon
Its been a long time I did not feel to write about my family but some things need to be on the blockchain.
Tahnee taught me about privacy when I posted too many of her photos on Facebook and she didn't like it at all. I accepted her wish to stop because I actually agreed with her but this time I hope she will forgive me.
I am proud
I love my beautiful, stunning, awesome, gorgeous daughter Putu (my first born in Balinese) Tahnee from here to the moon and back 100000.....x and now its marked on the blockchain as well.
Tahnee means " Desirable" in Native Indian and Oh Yes .......She is more than a desire and one of my dreams became true, when I at least expected it.
She is my miracle! My biggest present from the universe!
I don't need diamonds nor do I care for gold. It was the best feeling I ever experienced in my entire life, when I held her for the first time and heard her scream, telling me she was alive. It was a very difficult birth. I nearly lost her. Her umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck.
We did it .......with all strength, only a woman can find in such horrific moment when you are told that her heart stopped for seconds!
We did it together!
I trust her strength to master her life! She is an "old soul" and already wise at age 23.
She was more than any woman can wish for.
I can't express enough what kind of love I have for my "baby" and hope that we will solve all our mother-daughter issues over time.
It's nothing but admiration I have for hersince she tries to become an independant and strong woman, I respect very much. I also respect her "first love" because she is happy and t.since nearly two years but I have to admit it was difficult to understand her choic. I always hoped she should have an easier life than me with less “hustle”.
True Love is more than just a feeling.
I want her to know that I have not always been the mother she wished to have and I made mistakes I do regret.
We are like night and day or the sun and the moon.
We even have the same scares on our forehead and the same operation at young age. Mine are on the left side. Her's on the right. How bizarre this is, I thought many times.
I tried my Best and I mostly thought that I did a fantastic job but I was too clingy when I felt she doesn't need me that much anymore. I could have avoided many unnecessary moments and problems. "I AM SO SORRY".
Those problems were mine, my unfortunate relationships with men I once loved, not hers and for sure not because of her.
I am here and will hold her when she is in need of being held.
I have so many favourite images of my girl but this one is the most special to me. It’s that smile.
I could squeeze this cute face forever just as I did when I layed eyes on her on July 5 of the year 1994.
Tahnee sits on her sweet, little, black and white dalmatian chair in our Midtown Manhatten loft late 90's, when she was 4 years young. For the first 5 years I raised her as a single parent and I am thankful for all the help I got for over 15 year after.
We failed as a couple.
Look at that outfit!
I posted this powerful image many times on various platforms because I got that feeling that I should save it forever. I lost too many photos in the past, moving around many times. I might have already posted last year on steemit but its ok to do it again.
Those shoes were made for walking and were my all time favourites as well :) I do remember so well how much she loved them.
I can always count on her for important things.
Its all good as it is.
Love is much more than my words can describe.
Yours 