I'd recommend being gentle with yourself during this transformation, but you probably already know to do that. New love can be scary in unexpected ways. I wish I could bring you tea while you sit, wrapped in a blanket, with your feet on the grass.
In a more practical sense, putting up with your boss' annoying idiosyncrasies for now and completing the loan forgiveness application seem like the kinds of things that your future self might thank you for doing.
RE: Rants, Complaints, and Insights