Having one life puts pressure on persons to "make the most, be happy, live to your fullest, take life by the balls" or any number of meme's 'inspiring' likes and shares, consuming your limited time dreaming of something better. My cultural exposure has a problem with BELIEF. We are doing it right now, searching for the right beliefs. As if I might be able to write them down here.
The culture I'm exposed to seems to have propagated right belief over right action as it's underlying philosophy or TRUTH. As long as you believe in yourself, as long as you have good intentions, as long as you tried your hardest, if you believe in the government, believe in anything at all. You'll be alright, you'll get there someday, you'll be rich, you'll be successful, you'll be happy IF. If only I could just get that promotion, that job, some money, that house, that car, those clothes, that rush, that vacation, THAT life.
It is as if anything I achieve or could achieve is overshadowed by the next one on my list; an endless cycle of now this. I just moved back home from my life with my now ex girlfriend. I love her still, she even loves me but we both knew I trapped myself, held myself captive, automated my own body an attempt to escape my feelings of being destroyed by the repetitive feeling of work, commute, eat, sleep, commute, work, commute, eat, sleep, commute, repeat.. I had to leave to bring about a future where we get to become as children again. Where surprise and spontaneity brings the love we came to love so much.
This alienation, the sense that we are riding in the piece of meat we call our body. Or even that we are just our brain riding in our body. A soul, trapped in matter, counting down the time until we fade back into the black, I mean space and time are so vast we might as well not exist. Yet we do, almost like we were accidently formed for no reason. Referred to as the automatic model of the universe, where science upholds 'laws' of nature. We feel like this because of the way we perceive life, if you change your attitude towards life, life changes its attitude towards you!
Western science and technology brought a tragic perspective to life, where duality breaks the whole of being, from one into two. This life perspective no longer makes sense to me, there is no separation of the fabric of space-time. We are not separate and inside of it, we are the WHOLE thing! All of us, everything together, well now we can bring up all kinds of questions from there but the realization that gets made is
IS NOTHING
there is no question which needs answering, nothing to be done, this is it. Or have you decided i'm crazy. For then I am with god.
There is nothing to realize, you are it! This experience you have this dream, this drama, this life, IS the brilliant light of heaven. You've simply been hiding from yourself in the eternal game of hide and seek! !
And once you find yourself you will try to get lost again because if you knew who you were, you would know, and then you would want be be someone else again.