This year, I learned that sometimes it's better to enjoy life without having rigid plans and goals. While I did make some plans and set some goals this year, they didn't always work out as expected. However, that doesn't mean I'm giving up on trying new things or facing challenges. Instead, I'm going to be more mindful about the things I choose to invest my time and energy in, and focus on finding balance and enjoyment in the present moment.

Lately, I've been watching movies and TV shows about people pursuing their passions, even if it means earning very little at first. While money is important, these people are happy and fulfilled because they're doing what they love. In some cases, their passion and determination even lead to financial success, because they're not solely focused on earning as much money as possible. Instead, they're driven by their passion and grit, which enables them to create something of value and achieve success on their own terms.

At the same time, I had the opportunity to meet many interesting people who are passionate about what they do during my travels. Their enthusiasm was contagious, and it made me reconsider whether I was unhappy because I was straying from my own passions. There have been times when I prioritized making money over pursuing my passions, because it's just part of life. However, I've been putting that priority first for so long that I'm now starting to feel the negative consequences of it.

I love learning, reading, and writing. In fact, if it weren't considered spammy, I would probably continue writing until I became tired. I could write to the void like I did in the past and it was fine for me.When it comes to writing, even now, I am trying to limit it here 2-3 posts a day to keep it neat and not being spammy. But it's my home, right? it's where I love to write and I think it's fine even if I write dozen of posts/day.

In the past, I sometimes doubted my path in life and questioned whether I was where I wanted to be. However, I've come to realize that I am actually in a position where I get to read, write, and learn something new every day - things that I've always enjoyed and wanted to do. Maybe I was feeling unhappy because I wanted more but what more could I ask when I get to do something I love.

These past few days, I took a step back and recognized how fortunate I am to be able to pursue my passions and make something of them. perhaps, the problem about my dissatisfaction and unhappiness were because of my own lack of gratitude for the blessings I have. Christmas was a turning point for me, as it was the first time in a while that I took the time to write out a list of things I'm grateful for. That simplest thing, somehow shifted my perspective and focus on the positive aspects of my life rather than dwelling into the negativity and the things that went wrong in my life.

Anyhow, in 2023, my plan is to continue writing and exploring other options on the side. I've also been researching schools and education, and it's definitely on my radar for next year. Eventually, my goal is to find a balance between my passions and other areas while at the same time, continue learning and growing as a person.

I hope that 2023 is a year filled with happiness, health, and personal fulfillment for all of you. I hope you may be able to achieve your goals and be exactly where you want to be in life.

Wishing you all the best in the coming year!