Self Growth 2.0 Week 3

I am not sure if you can relate, but I have been busy where I am. I have two weddings in a row, and before that, I traveled to different places. Technically, I was always on the move these days. I should be happy, but the universe is showing me that I am not young anymore, though, in my heart, I still feel like 18!

Here’s the thing, to be honest with you, week 3 was a clusterfuck. I didn’t get anything done. It was a hell of a week, and I can’t even process it yet. I was on week 2, getting a little lazy, but it dragged on until week 3. Now, it’s the 4th week, a month after I started this personal development experience.

You know, unlike the previous challenge, this time, the only things I’ve consistently done were reading the Bible, working out, and saving up. I honestly didn’t want to miss updating things, but there’s always something on the weekend that actually takes up my energy.

But let’s revise this chart because I will not lie to y’all. These are what keep me accountable. Without these lists that I fill out religiously and honestly, I would be lying to myself that I actually do them. You see a lot of lines in this chart that indicate I haven’t done the said things.

I desperately needed to find the time to do all these, yet with all the moving I was doing, my time and energy are slipping away so easily. I plan on not moving, though, as much as I am tempted to do so, but I have to reach my goals. A few of my goals this month include installing a glass block in my room to prevent smoke from people who burned trash outside of my room.

I will also have an online webinar about Hive, a writing contest, and an offline Hive event in January that needs a lot of preparation. This is the mini calendar that I made. It’s going to be my first time presenting in front of an audience again after years. In the past, I used to do this kind of thing quite easily, and now, I am training that muscle again. Hopefully, nothing goes wrong, and fingers crossed, it’s going to be working.

At the very least, I am very consistent with my daily scripture reading and love revising a verse that resonates with me the most. I also then revised it the next day, so it stuck to my memory. I have read the Bible a couple of times, but trying to memorize it versus simply reading it are different things. This time, I want to learn it by heart while also understanding everything I didn’t get to do in the past. So far, the result has been a lot more understanding on my end because the Bible was introduced to me, not in a good way. Today, I finally learned that what I’ve been taught was practically wrong and got the rationale behind it. As a former atheist/agnostic, I think things make sense. Some chapters are fitting to lead one way’s of living. The more I read it, the more I find a lot of similarities with my moral values.

So, I’ll count this week as the 3rd week despite it being 4th week of this personal development journey. That also means I am adding 7 days to my week, which is okay. I’ll be staying more consistent!