haha it's fine, you can share your experiences with it. I am literally limiting myself to anyone esp relatives just cause they are most curious people I know. Like you said, the hell with them. I am already very conscious of what I eat and sometimes I don't even eat because afraid that I would grow even bigger. I also do lap swimming about 2-3 times/week. It's so relaxing, peaceful but the thing is, I also enjoy lifting weight 😁. Writing this was a step for me recognizing that it's a problem and it's something that I am trying to move forward, thinking more positively and stop having self-limiting beliefs that I can't do things because my weight.