Brain Dump | Morning Musings

Think about suddenly helping farmers out of nowhere, being homeless for a day, joining a rally or some other antics I used to do.

For the first time, I think my life wasn't so bad. I had a life full of adventure, and now I feel like I haven't gotten the opportunity to do that. @selfhelp4trolls reminds me that I am an explorer. I don't know what he actually meant, but I get the gist. It's more like I am adventurous, full of curiosity, and willing to go into the unknown. These days, I am mostly cooped out in my room, doing the same routine and feeling stupid as hell.

I felt like there has to be a way where, as an adult, money isn't really everything. Like, I get it, it's cool; who doesn't need money? I fucking do, but as much as money gives me contentment, other things in life can also fill me with joy. I pretty much love my antics; I think they helped me realize something cool and helped me become a lot more humanized.

I suppose that was partly what encouraged me to tour all around the country just to prove my hypothesis on ancient structures. I felt like nothing else mattered than proving my convictions. I did it anyway, and I didn't care if anybody cared 😂

Honestly, I don't know why I cared so much about what people might thought of me and being a little scared lately. I suppose this is what living with your parents can make you feel. There's some type of convenience that's very comforting. The thing is, I always purposely make my life a lot more challenging than it should be, and now I have convenience. It's simply not what I am used to, and I get frustrated 😂

I've been thinking a lot on what I should do. I think I could also host a free workshop with a sign that said, " Come practice your English with me or some type of shit". There's a lot that I can teach others, from simple basic coding to basic cooking skills. I mean, maybe that's something I should be doing in my community. Although getting people interested would be its own set of challenges, guess what? When it's marketed as "Free", who wouldn't love it? 😄

For the most part, I am just simply trying to break out of predictability in my life. It got monotonous after a while, and I needed something new and challenging things that didn't have anything to do with the screen. At this point, as much as I like using my gadgets, I'd prefer to have a moment to stay out of all these.