Let me ask you something, have you ever thought you were insane? Even though the majority of you may say yes, I ask of you to give a deep thought about your answer. Have you ever had truly abominable thoughts? The kind you wouldnt even share with your best friend and even less with your family. Things like carrying the baby of a family member or friend and thinking about doing something horrifying, like throwing it out the window or dropping it.
Have you ever thought how it would be to go down the street and hit someone out of nowhere? How would you be if you were a serial killer? Have you ever seen your girlfriend or boyfriend and thought, without being angry or provoked, how would it be if you suddenly took a knife and stuck it in her/his chest? How would it be if while seeing your mother in the kitchen, you grab a pot of boiling water and threw it in her face?
What would happen if you pushed a friend or family member out the window? In fact, what would happen if you murdered your own pet in a horrendous way or someone else's? Maybe you do not have to go that far. Did you ever think about making a scene in public, something incredibly shameful and detestable in front of family or friends?
Anyway, all those unspeakable things you came up with out of nowhere and without any provocation, I want you to remember them and what your thoughts about it, you have probably scared yourself a lot or you have least felt extremely uncomfortable thinking that the saddest secret of your life is that you may have couple loose screws in your head.
Perhaps you have consoled yourself thinking that you can keep it at bay, that you would not dare to do it in reality or at least that you would draw willpower to stop yourself from doing something crazy if suddenly your terrible secret gets worse over time.
If you are one of these people, if this has happened to you and I am sure there are many who will answer for themselves "Yes", then I have news for you.
It is completely normal. Those detestable thoughts impossible to tell any person no matter how much long you have been friends, those gruesome thoughts that occasionally come to you from nothing are completely normal, it's called "Intrusive Thought", and it may vary.
From imagining yourself doing something terrible to someone helpless and inocent, even to a loved one, even the most abominable thoughts that go from jumping over the balcony in front of your family to things still much worse and more sordid. It happens to many people, and as much as it costs for you to believe it, it's natural, so you're not crazy. The interesting thing is that many people throughout history have written about this, and poor of them because they did not have the counseling psychology that can be enjoyed today in modern times.
The formidable Edgar Allan Poe had a name to describe this to what he considered a curious evil, and that in his wisdom he knew that he did not suffer only himself, but other people too: "The Imp of the Perversed". He considered it an internal demon in every human being that suddenly activates and gives us a dark call to do indescribable things. Why and in what purpose? According to him, for the enjoyment of perversity, because that specific moment that crosses us between eyebrows such an abominable thought simply occurs to us because we are able to do it.
Curiously, the French have a name to describe this human phenomenon: "l'appel du vide" or -"The Call of the Void", and although it is a term that is more related to people who suddenly have suicidal thoughts, it almost becomes the same. Maybe we can also baptize this phenomenon from deep inside of us, and with the monumental relief of knowing that we are normal and we are not on the road to madness. Even if some people it is a guilty and strong feeling. For that reason perhaps you can call it in a way that at the same time is an order: "Shut the hell up brain!".
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