It’s not possible to silence this
I cannot fathom hatred
I don’t know it
I don’t like it’s face
And
I don’t deserve it
I am a positive light shining
Despite my poor choices of recent past
I have something important in my world
First I have shame for my missteps, and that is a sincere and true state of mind.
Then I have heart.
It beats.
It’s a sequence of its own fierce rhythm.
I dance to its marvelous off beat.
I am not as pitiful as my peers seem to think,
Nor am I a doormat.
Why have I been reduced to tears repeatedly after much effort and much struggle to right the wrongs on my side of the street?
This is the making of a great divide but that is not my want nor is it my goal.
I can’t continue to be the punching bag for the ones who are in position to be my mentor. My captor. My demise.
I do not wish on my enemies the sadness loaded into my arms, from my very own most admired friends.
I cherish.
They ravage.
I enhance.
They belittle.
I invite.
They lock up the door and draw the curtain.
They prove to me repeatedly what I prayed would never be...
And that is ...that they don’t love me. 💔💔💔💔
Stings painfully sharp
But a boiling vat of unjustified slanders
Does not a reality make.
Does not this heart burst or break.
No I do not permit this unfair humiliation.
Buzz off is just what I should do
How unfortunate for you, who shunned your brightest star while it was falling.
The character revealed itself to me and it was baffling. It was demonic. It was you, who I saw in an incorrect light as a pure and noble advocate for all that is righteous. I was clearly misinformed by my inner guide when they whispered that I should listen to you.
When they said I should stay with you, I should not have been so agreeable.
I should have looked to my shoulder and I may have seen the devil was the one whispering the sweet dream.
You are not what I thought
You are a withered false lie
You’re incredible, literally
No credibility in those eyes.
Not anymore.
I don’t believe you.
I don’t believe in your cause.
You wreak havoc on me when I am below you carrying your world as heavy and burdened as the greatest of martyrs. You are mistaken to think I should be cast off this way.
I’m a planet of love
You’re a sink hole of fear
I’m a sincere and good person
You’re a paranoid peer.
You know all that static you see inside me?
It’s you. Namste. Look in the mirror - you’ll see.
I’m not the one who hates myself
And I don’t punish far away friends
The way you came down heavy on me
For the story with no end.
You blew it.
I blew it .
Hey, I did make it right.
You knew my weakness exploiting my past
You came with a vengeance but your fight never lasts
Since you are just as fickle as the weather each day
One sunny warm Monday
Without listening to the mind you betray.
What is in there, in darkness?
What is that you hold?
Is it misery, man, because it’s getting old.
I will abandon my post if you don’t stop this hate.
Hostility looks very bad on me, and worse even, on you.
Just stop with the Snyde catty comments and think...
Does That girl deserve to be scarred at the brink
It’s unimaginable
To hurt another this much
But this isn’t the first time
You’re a broken crutch.
But I owe you. And you owe me. We must complete this bullshit paperwork before parting the sea and letting my talent sail free to the telegraph of coins or the desk of coins whose offers I refused until today.
I may make the call that will change my surroundings
And miss me you might if you don’t stop the crowning.
Love not.
👀As you were!
Love him,him and her.
👣 Don’t try to be kind
Just remind
remind me
Of Him
The one magical face
The handsome
Now distorted
By his own disgrace
It won’t matter in one week
He will forget how he stomped
He will look up bewildered
And his friend will be gone.
My world will come crashing
For days.
But not weeks.
Yours will stay boring
You won’t find what you seek
Not without significant changes
And upgrades to your scene
And the reason is simple sir....
it’s because you are MEAN.
