It should be autumn, but in this place only winter and summer are presented; I say this because the trees are dropping all their leaves, and I under this immense tree I see how they draw small silhouettes in the air guided by the breeze. That is what I do while I wait for you to arrive, to see how the leaves dance under the shining sun of the sunset, they do it so subtly, quite the opposite of the unbridled rhythm that my heart takes to think that every minute elapsed you get a little closer to the place of our appointment. This place is perfect, its loneliness only for both of us, that sun that gradually turns red and this floor full of dry leaves that will allow me to hear every step as you approach. A moment has passed and as expected I began to hear how the leaves break with each step, the sound becomes more noticeable as you get closer. I will not turn around, I just wait for that warm hug on the back and that kiss on the neck that I know you will give me. You're right behind me, and my heart wants to get out of my chest, it seems like it was the first time, I already swallowed once and I'm about to do it again, but those hands around my waist makes everything stop, even my breathing, those hands that are not yours, that smell that is not yours, now my heart quickened, but not in the same way that you accelerate it, but of fear. I wanted to scream, but that blow to my head drowned my voice and vanished the strength of my body. I'm being dragged, my leg is making its way through the dry leaves, I can't scream, the world is spinning, tears start to come out of my eyes because I know the worst will come. My faded and helpless body is thrown on a bed made of branches and I can barely see the blurred face of someone who approaches me and gives me another blow, not so strong that the lights do not go out completely for this hell , like wanting to suffer seeing this nightmare. I do not stop crying, it seems that my eyes and my heart is the only thing that lives in me, I can feel my blouse and my bra tear, I can feel how it puts my nipples in its filthy mouth, how it rolls its tongue through my chest and my neck, that tongue that I feel to destroy the virginity of my skin, as I want it to become a razor in my throat and everything ends at last. It's horrible not to be able to scream, it's horrible to feel how I take off my pants and my underwear. His tongue is leaving in my skin that saliva smell of shit and while he puts his tongue in my ear I feel how wildly it penetrates me and ends with my virginity, the one that I promised to give you today. My body is mistreated, each onslaught is stronger and the pain is worse. The damn one stopped for a moment and for a moment I thought it was all over, but now the worst would come, his rough hands turned my body and placed me face down, I knew it was going to happen, my eyes looked like a waterfall , my body did not respond and my intentions to scream are muted as in a nightmare.
I felt a warm saliva fall between my buttocks and I wanted nothing more than to die because I knew that what was going to happen is worse than death. I felt his hands opening my buttocks and his penis tearing me again and again incessantly, he took my hair and pulled it so hard that my head moved from side to side, the pain was so intense that I lost my mind, something I thanked to open my eyes and see that it was gone.My heart sped up so fast when I heard accelerated steps, fast steps approaching, someone was running towards me, I didn’t want to imagine reliving that nightmare again, but it was you, you who saw me cry as much as I did, I know you died in that place and that you blamed yourself for not being able to help me. The fault is not yours, the fault is not mine, the fault is that damn sick man who shattered me. Just take me home, love, and don’t get away from me.
