thank you for your kind words :)
one of my problems is that I lost the ability to do 'nothing' without feeling bad. And it's a gateway to making my depression worse most of the time. I think there is a very very fine line between 'doing nothing' or 'being lazy' and sometimes I have to remember that I can also have fun being productive xD I never thought that managing time and doing stuff would be so difficult but here we are xD
I think with time I will find my freedom again. Right now I'm just glad that there are people that can relate and understand :) <3