Its almost impossible to interrupt yourself for not feedback and no interaction or interest to her. As friday and Saturday is weekly holidays here, so there is no story with her even though i have all contact or social contact of her.
(pic from Internet for attraction)
Its being suffocating inside me, i can't sleep or not a single moment keep away to think about her, my sleep is gonna be fade and my eyes are carried all the symptoms of it. I am just like hunter become haunted!
So, i decided to leave at here, i am facing all the best song reminder and thinking about her, seems like i have fallen love once again. And possibly the best thing is in my mind that totally ignored- its enough! Later i have joined office on Saturday and practice to don't look follow back whatever and whoever is entering the office room- my sitting place is very first row of office door and i can see all the day long people's in and out.
At an average situation i can made and stick to my plan and success! Now its time to execute the plan- totally ignored her, not look back her again and don't give any attention for her. As i make entrace office after very sharp of 8.00am and relax to execute my plan.
One thing my mind go round and round that how could i realise that she find and noticed my ignorance if i don't look back at her. Whatever, i am strick to my plan, as she make entrace at after 9.43am regular, so i also start to maintain my official dress code similarly on that particular time. Today we can met again face to face but save as by leave my desk five second late!
She take her sit and busy on desk work but i can't sure she is doing that, although i have crossed check hrt later and found she is keep busy eyeing on computer monitor. After a certain time, she is gone for wash room or water bottle filling at that main door, my peripheral view is now active while she she crossing me, found she is wearing green tops and off-white pant. I even tilt my head while she in and out the office room, even if i leave my desk, i don't look back to her at all time. At lunch time she is also out and in but i didn't look at her, she is two times come at oven area with just crossed my right side and i didn't tilt my head and keep my head position towards my computer monitor.
After completing wash room, she is met one of her female colleage who is just behind me and this time also don't look at her. So, totally four to five times i have faced to eyes contact with her but didn't give a single chance to her, which may be she realised as she return to her seat by backward row not in fort of me.
At the last, just leave the office finally i just break my stricken and decide to watch het and contact to her eyes, only the best chance is return from wash room and enter the room, i try to make on eye to eye but find only she is just back off and gossiping with her female colleague, and that colleague just make an eye contact.
Finally today we leave the office at same time, check out attendance same time, waiting lift at loby, taken same lift just aside of me. I just looking this time on her at the lift mirror, found she is may be followed but different mirror reflection. They are also talking each other about huff or arrogance that some is rude or else, and also taking about don't keep in hurt about these type of thing- just talk each other finish all the ego.
My mind set all the words, as i ignored her too much, talking about myself- no way!
