Happy New year Hive!
Of course I'm late to the party but I have covid so I'm slightly miserable as I'm locked in the house.
With a cat that wants to destroy the world.
Hope you are all fabulous and you have some resolutions for 2022!
Sure as hell I do.
Am I gonna smash my golas this year? Ha! Fingers crossed 馃槀
One of the things I want to do more this years is exercise and model.
I really hope I will manage to have enough time to do all the creative things I want to do!
Today I just wanted to tell you how I got myself into modeling.
Because it's been an ongoing hobby for many years.
Something that gave me a little escape from reality, chance to express my creative side and taught me how to love myself more.
I started modeling when I was 16 years old and it was absolutely nothing serious.
My mate got a camera and said 'let's practice' and that exactly what we did.
With time I met more and more people that just want to take photos of me because 'they like my look' and I started really enjoying it!
It felt so different to be in front of camera.
I loved how it made me feel, how my confidence grown from one shoot to another.
My flaws didn't matter as much, people just didn't notice as much as I did.
I realised a lot of my issues with my look are entirely in my head.
My hight didn't matter, my heterochromic eyes become an advantage even though I hated it so so much.
In 2013 I moved to UK.
I started to feel a little withdraw from my shoots, my confidence was lower, my creative side was dying.
Unfortunately I couldn't speak very good English, I was scared of people and anxious that because I'm polish my type of beauty won't be interesting at all.
So for years I completely forgot about modeling, until a friend at university asked me if I want to do a photoshoot with him because 'he thinks I've got a funny looking face'.
My confidence was dead so I took it as a compliment and agreed.
I'm so glad I did!
But after this photoshoot my life went upside down, I moved to Yorkshire, I was busy with my work, studies.
2 years after the move I become a mum.
Not gonna lie, that changed my life. Like a lot 馃槀
Being a mum was a planned decision, however, things like that, you can't plan in 100%. Never, doesn't matter how prepared you are, you are not.
Being a mum was super hard and scary!
Yet, I would not change it for the world 馃槉
One day, bored to death, when my daughter was about 3 months old and having a nap I just scrolled Facebook and a thought came to my mind!
Gotta check if they have any modeling groups in Yorkshire!
Now I'm older, I speak the language, however, now I have loose skin and stretch marks... But why not to have a look!
I found West Yorkshire Models and Photographers Group on FB.
Requested to join and spent all day thinking when I'm gonna have the time for this.
They accepted and I got to see what Yorkshire has to offer!
Didn't post a casting, or reply to a casting till a few months later when my daughter was 5 months old and I had the best pink hair I had in my life.
Seriously, miss it, never managed to achieve again, bummer.
After posting I got approached by a polish photographer, who offered a TFP shoot (time for photos) and I agreed.
My daughter stayed with her dad and I decided to face the camera again.
We went to Calf and Cow Ilkley to take some natural photos and honestly? Felt amazing!
The fact I got to meet a polish person that was sound was also hella amazing!
I have a very bad luck with polish people in UK so this change was so needed 馃槀
The things is... That's it.
It's that easy to become a model.
Give it a go, reply to all the castings you can, put your face out there and enjoy!
I fucking love modeling guys.
Like no joke, it's something that makes me feel super alive.
I love to play different characters, do different looks, try new things!
This year I was in a bloody water tank!
Something I would never do if not modeling!
I met some amazing people, friends for life.
I feel confident and attractive, I am able to say I LOVE MYSELF!
I think everyone should think, especially the people that reading something like that think 'oh not with my face, my legs, my whatever'
IT DOESN'T MATTER!!
It doesn't matter if you are 20 or 70 you can still try and have some bloody fun doing it!
I know some people generally just don't like the feel, that's absolutely fine!
That's why those people try on the other side of thr camera 鉂わ笍
But if you don't know if you gonna like it or not, try!
You can enjoy being a chameleon as much as I do!
