Life is a school and we keep learning about thing's till the last day of our life. It doesn't mean that you only learn from the school while you learn the biggest lesson from the life as your own experiences is your best teacher but if you really want to learn and if you don't want to learn and do whatever thing's are like after making mistakes then it's also your decision.
2025 was the year with biggest lost in life and after that i was trying to move on but something still inside me it's not the regret but it's the emotional balance which is totally disturb and my biggest goal this year to control on emotions. I know it's hard to play with emotions of ourselves as it's not the habit of mine but it's a change after some incidents in life and i just need to take a U-turn and try to be what I'm really because i know this is a mask on my personality which i can remove.
Life is so uncertain that we never imagine such things can happen to us really but we start to face these things. I was a calm girl before 2025 but then such things happen in life that so much change inside as they effected my emotions too. I'm a very conscious person about health and i always try to sleep early at night but then i was starting to having nightmares and i can't sleep after those nightmares.
I've fear's about many things in my mind which i need to control, things passed in real life or in reality as that era passed but leave imprint on my mind and now I'm having nightmares. I try to do many things to control on these nightmares as i know it's not in my control but then i think it's in my control just i need to control on my brain, thoughts and need to calm myself and for that i did meditation nowadays.
Just like starting have nightmares i start to do become aggressive on little things happen around as you can say i can't tolerate bad thing's in life and I react to them immediately and after sometime mean after immediate reaction i start to think that i shouldn't say this or shouldn't give this reaction. On something's i control myself and be quiet that I'm in the process to control on anger emotion's.
Sometimes i think my anger emotion's increases just because my mind can't take a proper sleep and then i feel irritated or disturb all the day and then i acted like which i shouldn't but sometimes i feel good as i can control. But poor Lesly is trying to control on her emotions nowadays.
That's all for today and it's my entry in this week hive learner contest in #hl-exclusive for the topic of #hl-208e1.
