Today my two worlds collided, my outside and inside, pure bliss vs raging armegeddon.
Two worlds clearly in opposition, what a difference, stuck in the middle of an emotional tug of war.
I am sat looking out over a beautiful lake in the north of 🇸🇪, having time to meditate and to just be with me, completely surrounded by nature. I decided to quit my job and take a crazy chance at finding out who I really am.
I had gone to do my regular morning routine of meditation and chi gong. Time to just be, and give my soul some love.
But today a storm was brewing deep inside. I was on an inner crash course, and the waves where getting bigger. There I was disconnected from my outside, trying to control my way back to the peaceful shore.
The more I battled, the bigger the waves became. Fighting only made the storm get stronger. The thoughts of why? The inner outcry for the peaceful sanctuary of yesterday's meditation. I wanted to get back there. This wanting just seemed to intensify the longing and push it further away.
⏰ Times up....
Wow!! 45mins passed in blink of an eye.
How was that possible that I was lost in time, inside of me, oblivious to the moment and how the world was looking back.
I could even feel the emotions, feeling the lose and frustration. So instead of fighting I choose to do something different, because I had no logical reason to feel this way, that these where just thoughts happening.
I decided let go, I embraced my inner storm and set sail to ride out the waves of my morning to these thoughts instead:
"I accept you, I embrace you and now I realise you"
And again,
and again,
and again,
...till the feelings, rippled
sooooooftly
awaaaaaaaaayyyyy
The more I seemed to fight my way back, the bigger the chaos became and the more of it I became.
But by embracing it for what it was, I gave myself permission to feel it, and accept a part of me.
It is ok to feel this way.
And storms are only temporary.
The next time you are confronted by your inner storm, it's ok to feel that way, just don't stay there for too long.
Every part of you is beautiful and is leading you to somewhere to an even more beautiful version of you, be extra loving to yourself today, especially if your in a storm. ✨❤️🌊⛵️🙏🏻✨
