That's pretty unfair with the racism. Nobody should have to go thru that. Why does character building have to be so harsh!

I look like the whiter half so I can't say I have experienced too much in that department aside from the sexual harassment that comes with having an "exotic" look. I needed people to think I was batshit crazy and had some arms behind me in case anything ever happened. I had no adult protection as a kid and targeted by pedo networks some of them even school teachers.

I've done bad things, things that people may perceive as such

People never know or understand the circumstances you were in when making the decisions you have to make. I never bothered myself with peoples opinions and I don't really reveal my plans or what I'm up to too much because of it so I'm like a big mystery to everyone. It scares people because those that know me know I'm calculated and always thinking. I am many things and each person knows a different side/me but they are all me just the same. Like a social chameleon. I have learned to be semi-patient but know when to take out Queen B. Even when I lose it, it's with intent and not out of emotion so much as just sick of it and want the insubordination or behavior to stop and my point isn't coming across trying to be nice about it. Just like the great PB smear, I will find an effective way to get my point across. I'm feared to some a legend to others, I suppose it depends on how each person treat me.

Just like you, I value peace and happiness and just being myself whatever that may be but I don't allow people to walk all over me anymore no matter who they are. That's what makes us badass, we can control our assholery...Know when to hold em, know when to fold em.