Recently I had been asked the question:
What is your pain?
At first I had no idea I had pain or still had things to deal with. Turns out I was really good at hiding it or running away from it and not confronting it head on. Luckily I have friends who have observed me for years and made me realize that I myself had things to deal with. Out of pure love they called me out on it and gave me the strength let go of keeping it hidden. The things that have held me back for years. Things that have caused me to give a small percentage of who I really am to my friends and family. I found that the things that led to this such as my comfort zone, not daring to speak my mind and making excuses, where all rooted inside my ego.
It all became clear to me that I had a fight with something that I hadn't dealt with because I did not believe I had the strength to do so, even though I already knew what to do. I gained my self-belief in reciprocating positive things to myself with the words:
I am love
I am strength
I am special
I am extraordinary
and most recently
I am alive
