THE BEGINNING OF MY END 2

I sat on the floor of the bathroom after i had cleaned myself up and cried. I cried, not because of the repeating cruelty, but because it was done by someone i felt i could find solace in. what was i thinking? what was i even doing there? why do i trust so much?
I picked up the remains of my dignity and walked out of the bathroom. I found him sitting on the bed, waiting for me to come out. He had been sitting there for long. I couldn't say a thing. I stared at him and he stared back, only i could read the thoughts that displayed, through his eyes. A tear dropped and i turned to leave. "WAIT!!!! please don't leave, I'm sorry!" I heard him say. I felt his hand on my waist. I closed my eyes for a while still not believing what had happened. I gathered courage, "please, I beg you, let me go. you've already had me....there's nothing more to conquer." he tried to talk but i opened the door, left his room, the compound and his life, shattered and broken.
Days passed and all i could think of was what happened that day. My cell battery was constantly being drained by Zack's calls and text messages apologizing and trying to make it up to me. I had been raped before, when i was much younger. That had an effect, but not as strong as this. I just felt worthless and really used. It was just so unbelievable. Men generally began to irritate me. Even remembering the infidelity of my father began to brew hate in me. It was all too much. I couldn't tell anyone about it, so i prayed and decided to forgive him. Moving on was the only option. I wasn't going to make the same mistake, I promised myself.
I piked up his call and i felt his shock as i asked "what's up?" he stammered for a while....asking for forgiveness and pleading. He asked to make it up and I told him not to bother. I felt i was fine, I thought all was going to be good from there, but this,this was the real beginning of my end I started work as an assistant to a head mistress of a primary school, and i was just about imputing scores of students into the system when my phone rang. It was Zack. I picked and we exchanged pleasantries. He told me his girlfriend and brother were around in the house and were having a get together and invited me over. I felt uneasy, he sensed and assured me that he was going to leave me in the company of his girl friend and that he would stay away if that was what i wanted. I refused, but he begged. His girl friend took the phone from him and said hi. She said Zack had said so much about me being his close friend back in school and that she would love to see me and get to know all his friends. I remained mute for a while.He didn't tell her what he did and i didn't want some awkward situation so i said a faint "yes" and she beamed.
I met Diane, and some of his other friends having fun. I came late and the get together seemed to have ended, but his brother served me snacks anyways. His friends began to leave, so it was Diane...Zack's gf, Zack himself, his brother and I, left in the living room and we were all just making jokes. I still felt very uneasy..but I didn't want to look like buzzkill so i Flowed, watching the time. Diane was beautiful and i wondered why Zack had to do what he did if Diane was giving him everything. I just didn't get it.
I got up to the kitchen and Zack followed me. First he hugged me from behind and said " I missed you" I froze and whispered, "the f**k! your girl friend is in the living room" He remained there and i stood puzzled, shocked, not understanding this guy! Was he going mad? "I love you Juliet, I love you. " He finished, kissed my neck from behind and left to the living room. I stood, awed!!!()

To be continued