It has been a while since I've written any fiction, and I don't really know why.
Out of Ideas?
I don't think the well has ran dry, so to speak, but maybe it has.
At one stage I was doing maybe 3-5 short stories a week, especially when I was writing the last novella. Say, 700+ words a day, about 5 - 6+ parts per chapter.
I was able to write it all in a really short space of time, because I was kind of hyper-focused on it, and it was the only thing I was interested in spending time to write about.
There have been other weeks where I have written short stories, as well as a few Worldbuilding posts, in one week. But, even the worldbuilding has slowed down drastically in the last month.
Plenty of evenings, when everyone else was asleep, I would get flashes of ideas, quickly write them down in my notepad on my phone, and come back to them the next day, as soon as I had some time. Or, I'd read a prompt, and a thousand ideas would come to mind, but now, nothing.
I'm sure if I really focused, I could write something. It's just that, I really don't like the idea of forcing myself to do anything.
Music Block
All of my other creative outlets have come to a complete halt too.
For example, I've played my bass, maybe 3 times in the last couple of months. Only one of those time did I have fun, and do something I was really happy with.
But, I still listen to music when I get a chance, and I'm still interested in listening to it. It's just not sparking my want to play it myself.
This music-block has been going on for months, if I'm honest. It's been a long time since the last time I jammed with either band, as in, maybe 5-6 months.
Speaking with my dad about it, I asked him if he ever felt that way about Guitar, and to my relief he said, yes.
I'm kind of afraid, because I feel like I've litrally lost my want, or enjoyment, of playing music. I just don't have any interest in it, and haven't in the last couple of months, and I don't know why.
I don't even think I could call it music block, because I feel as though I'm not trying to play, and struggling to get a good sound out of it. I literally feel like I don't care anymore, and I'm just not bothered.
The thought of jamming gives me anxiety, even though there is a small voice in the back of my head saying I would enjoy it.
Clay
Even the model making has stopped for a long time now, even though I would actually like to push myself to make something, and have even written some ideas for things to make.
I don't know guys, it's as if everything I do, which is creative, has just completely stopped, and I'm not feeling it anymore.
I really don't want to force myself to do anything creative, because it'll turn out bad, and will most likely result in me doubling down on not wanting to do anything.
It's confusing, and the first time, in a long time that I've felt like this.
