As time grew i learnt new skills, i engaged in various activities and i stumbled upon an eye opening teaching about my circle of friends. The teaching touched so deep that i had to go home and rethink every bit of words i heard, i was not so quick to making a decision to implement the teachings but after carefully considering the odds i decided i want to make a difference and have a new pattern of life all together
It didn't take much thinking any longer i decided to take a decision towards bettering my life and i have to do this by distancing some friends even as far as to some family members
Things began to go all fine and nice, the highest attention I'll give to most of them is a message or two via social media platforms. It was never my intention, but my mental health needed the space to let out toxic things and activities. This time was closer to the end of the year, it should be around November period i believe
I gave in 95% of my time and attention to work, work work and personal development. I never minded the future of fun life
What i do most times is check the lives of old friends online, i admired them a little though but decision has been taken. I have to keep and maintain my decisions.
Fast forwarding, time got to the middle of December and office was planning on taking the year end break, i vibed with my colleagues, bosses and others around me with same vision and mindset, until...
It was few days to Christmas and we shut down offices and had a little break off work
First day at home was awesome, i did my usual routine (exercise, reading, food, personal development, check up calls etc, but except work). I didn't notice much difference or boredom until second and third day after being at home all by myself, alone in my thoughts and sounds of neighbors around. I'll have to say the truth, it was tormenting
In no time i began to loose focus and motivation to continue with my decision and i was like am i this weak in standing solidly by my decision, i tried my best to not allow my weakness overtake me but the more i try the more I'm seeing my efforts failing
It got to a stage reading seems like it was no longer entering my head, i got to understand the saying which says ALL WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES JACK A DOLL BOY so i decided I'll go catch a little fun later on. After careful drafting of fun activities the question came to my head, WHO ARE YOU GOING TO CATCH THIS FUN WITH, IS IT THE SAME PEOPLE YOU'VE SHOT OUT OR WHO? It was at that time i realized that despite the toxicity of a person they can still be useful at some point in time in life. All plans to go get an ideal day failed that day, all i kept wishing was for Christmas and New year break to reach faster before someone loose their sanity
At this point i was bored to the core, like nothing around me gives me vibe anymore my awesome to do list was looking like trash to me and it was at this time i had to make the decision to keep everyone close but maintain the words/activities i digest from them
Life was not designed to be lived on default, so if you find yourself going on one particular routine on a stead then check well because all may not fall well in place when the source of fun is removed... As at today I'll tell you the truth, i vibe with everyone but still maintain some lane and caution those who goes beyond boundaries and i can testify I'm living a lively and fun filled life and i do my best to balance work, life and studies
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