Absolutely, I love reading through your reflections! ...they resonate a lot, as in recent days I catch myself questioning my own reactions more and more. To the point where I am amazed about that self-reflection but also a bit exhausted by it:)
In the book I am reading right now he put's it in a way. That you choose your emotions to fit into the story that you build about yourself over the years... An interesting take on it I find. Leaving no room for excusing impulsive reactions with emotions.
And I have been wondering indeed, why we always want to be nice and liked by others. Maybe another part of it, next to that especially as woman that seems to be expected, could be also biological. Better be liked than eaten or something like that😅