Bernard left a lot of written stuff to satisfy the curiosity of everyone. I miss the unpredictable input he always represented, but I think he wrote lots in the acceptance that the world will go on without

Sitting next to two old friends talking I feel like being human can have so many variations. To be a human all anything needs is your permission and you become what you give permission to. The addiction

The way we interact through money, politics, society, is not predetermined. Integrity is not predetermined. The willingness to abuse is not predetermined, though it is made a great effort to predetermine

Sharing. Managing group dynamics. Being a good teammate. Going out in the world and ensuring safety and prosperity to yourself through giving. Not being stingy. Making the atmosphere cordial and welcoming.

It's Chinese New Year, so February, and 10 months before another year ends. 10 groups of 4 weeks consisting of 7 days a week, and what will I create in this time? Who will I be? What can I be doing that's

I spoke with X and I told her that I don't believe in a blind version of love, that love is a force within my control. She laughed and said to have this conversation later. Speaking with people around

I wonder if a child's sense of wonderment is valued at all by people that know the world is a more dangerous place that doesn't warrant such wonder. To me, knowing what I know now, I would think I'd be

When is a good or bad experience real? Skimming through my life most of the suffering was a matter of definition of words. The same applied to a good deal of my good experiences. I wonder if what I'm

Applying good practice and the opposite of vicious cycles, constructive cycles to my life. Reminds me of a familiar feeling of the body having everything it needs like growing a plant, give sunshine, water,

Troubles. Comforting life troubles can be quantifying your progress in the various ways progress is measurable, and approximating the direction and extent it will bring over periods of time. Problem with

Rarely, I will ask myself why struggle so much when the destiny of humans is to be birthed and die? Fear of death throws me on the side of life. To me it doesn't make sense that I would want to be famous

What do I have to say that will be value? I'm curious because I'm asking in a state where I realize I have misinterpreted value, and require a process to realign my value to the value of life, and this

I might be writing and going on like a broken record. How the world is set up and how people actually interact with each other has been like a splinter in my mind for the longest time. I've yet to meet

I was talking to X when she noted that I'm still asking questions about what am I doing here, what I should be doing, and too much writing about the problem than changing myself in relationship to whatever

There's nothing else I want to add at this time. I have my past to walk, processes of developing skills to walk, earning a paltry salary for my living expenses, everything else is stable. Anything more

Last night I had the privilege of listening to the first interviews done by EQAFE by the Reptilians and Atlanteans. It was said that I don't have time, but there is time. Hearing the Atlantean's overview

Serious sometimes, something else others. Slightly brazen, unshy at heart, striving for the highest good. Where all see it's impossible, I don't think so. I think the highest good is like a foundation,

How many things in life are worth working for to the point of tiredness and exhaustion? I happen to see each person as being individually convinced and sort of lured into a trap by people and environments.

Second funeral, and I ask, "In light of this death, what does this death make light of my person?" The funeral and the economy go hand in hand, you see it in the plastic water bottles they hand

The art of practicing. It's only now I notice it's called an art because you need to exercise your creativity in the many ways to coax yourself to practice and practice fruitfully. At one point you just