I have some certainty of who I'm going to be 10 years later. I'll still be at the driver's seat, taking a firsthand drive through integrity and responsibility, valuing responsibility over ambition, and something about me is not going to change. No matter what happens, or what decisions I make in the end, a certain bottom line of integrity and a sense of how things are supposed to be I will apply liberally to all aspects of my life and myself. As much as I am giving input I gratefully receive the input from my reality, only one point has the potential of veering me off course: love. I've done my best to constrict and within reasonable self movement, not resort to love as my primary driving force, I've done my hardest to replace love with a version of love that emphasize responsibility and consideration than the traditional love which is impulse and instinct.
I'll still enjoy good food, good sleep, good housing, and using good products, and enjoying stuff or stuff about myself will preoccupy me for as long as I live. That direct form of enjoyment that we're born with and see most prominently in children, I will remain in contact with. Over the years I've observed that evil and evil people always has a reason and justification that if I had limited myself in the exact definition of words they live, I would have ended up the same way. Though the bottom line reason for living evil is always ridiculous and something out of imagination, I'm beginning to see all people try their best within their self imposed limitation as themselves, and the difference between a good and evil man is one single belief or observation charged with intense emotion or feeling. Rewind a few years back I would be utterly disgusted by someone that's deliberate in not doing what's best for all, now I understand my attention can be refunnelled into what I can possibly do or say to alleviate the misunderstanding in life views. In other words, I'm still responsible for myself and when my self responsibility is specific enough, I'll be the directive principle directing with principles I stand by, and evil people will be subject to my input that's specific enough to represent the common sense in them as well, so basically facing evil people with their own ability to common sense. Clear the misunderstanding that compromising others is to their benefit. Like in love and hatred, an emotion ends up being just an excuse.
