Let's talk about the elephant in the room.
In 2013, after my high school graduation, it was clear that my next step was study at university something that I was interested in, however, my first choice was to study film, which in my city was impossible because it did not exist as a career, even today, it is still not available.
I put on the table to travel to another city to study it, but there were some limitations, my age and a little fear of leaving my home. So I began to evaluate other options of what to do about my future, my wishes were to be able to maintain myself as an independent adult.
Architecture and Psychology were the first options. But by the randomness events of my life and in an unplanned decision, I started studying gastronomy.
At the beginning, my connection with the career was so bad that at the end of my first semester I only thought about dropping out, because I didn't feel like "me" at all.
I was also leaving my dream of studying film and my time was getting busier and busier, however, after the first semester, I got a job at a restaurant, which did not matter too much for me because I wanted to make money more than gaining experience.
There was a change in me when I interacted with a kitchen at this job, I felt satisfaction and joy the first time they told me "Excellent food" I felt, at that moment, that I could stand alone against the world, just there is where the break point of my life started.
I started to focus more on my career and work, by that time, the film had become an idea of something I once thought but no longer occupied, I wanted to become a chef, the greatest.
The hours of my days were getting shorter and I only saw food 24/7, to the point that I started to leave my musical group, my friends and even to careless about myself and my health because I wanted to highlight.
When I noticed it was too late, I had locked myself in the kitchen and it was the only thing I knew how to do (something that helped me when I left the country because I only worked in the kitchen).
Without noticing it and without knowing when it had happened, I had been working in kitchens for 10 years, 10!
10 years working overtime underpaid, having burns and cuts, without having a weekend off, I felt in a hole where I thought I had no escape and this became my comfort zone.
But everything changed when I decided to return to my country, I said that I would give up the world of cooking to dedicate myself to my dreams in the film industry, because this time I could study it in my city.
I will not lie, even for my inexperience, I have not found a job in the audiovisual world and yes, I had to return to the kitchens, but no doubt it will be totally temporary.
En el a帽o 2013, luego de graduarme en secundaria, tenia claro que mi siguiente paso era estudiar a nivel universitario algo que me apasionara, sin embargo, mi primera opci贸n era el cine, cosa que en mi ciudad era imposible pues no exist铆a como carrera, aun hoy, no esta disponible.
Me puse sobre la mesa viajar a otra ciudad para estudiarla, pero hubo algunas limitantes, mi edad y un poco de cobard铆a de dejar mi hogar. Asi que empece a evaluar otras opciones de que hacer sobre mi futuro, mis deseos eran poder mantenerme como adulto independiente.
Fueron, Arquitectura y Psicolog铆a las primeras opciones. Pero por azares de la vida y en una decisi贸n poco planificada empec茅 a estudiando la carrera de gastronom铆a.
Al principio, mi conexi贸n con la carrera era tan nula que al terminar mi primer semestre solo pensaba en abandonar la carrera, pues para nada me sentia "yo".
Adem谩s estaba dejando mi sue帽o de estudiar cine y mi tiempo se ocupaba cada vez m谩s, a pesar de esto, luego del primer semestre, consegu铆 un trabajo en un restaurante, el cual no me importaba mucho pues m谩s que ganar experiencia quer铆a generar dinero.
Hubo un cambio en mi al interactuar con una cocina en este trabajo, senti satisfaccion y alegria la primera vez que me dijeron "Excelente plato" sent铆, en ese momento, que pod铆a yo solo contra el mundo, justo ah铆 es donde empezo el punto de quiebre de mi vida.
Me empece a enfocar mas en mi carrera y en el trabajo, para ese momento, el cine habia quedado como una idea de algo que alguna vez pense pero que ya no ocuba, quer铆a convertirme en chef, en el mejor.
Las horas de mis d铆as se hac铆an m谩s cortas y solo ve铆a comida 24/7, al punto que empec茅 abandonar a mi grupo musical, a mis amigos e incluso a descuidarme a mi y a mi salud por querer resaltar.
Cuando lo note ya era tarde, me hab铆a encerrado solo en la cocina y era lo 煤nico que sab铆a hacer (Cosa que me ayud贸 cuando sal铆 del pa铆s pues solamente trabaje en cocina)
Sin notarlo y sin saber en qu茅 momento hab铆a pasado, ya llevaba 10 a帽os trabajando en cocinas, 10!
10 a帽os trabajando horas extras mal pagadas, teniendo quemaduras y cortadas, sin saber lo que era un fin de semana libre, me sent铆a en un pozo donde cre铆a que ya no ten铆a escape y este se volvio mi zona de confort.
Pero todo cambi贸 cuando decid铆 volver a mi pa铆s, pues dije que renunciar铆a al mundo de la cocina para esta vez, dedicarme a mis sue帽os en el cine, pues esta vez ya pod铆a estudiarlo, en mi ciudad.
No mentire, aun por mi inexperiencia, no he conseguido un trabajo en el mundo audiovisual y si, tuve que volver a las cocinas, pero sin duda ser谩 totalmente temporal.
