We had been good friends for years (we went to the same high school) though we drifted apart for many years as she went overseas for her work. Then, one day I suggested she had a look at furnished apartments available at the condominium. I was glad she had settled down nicely, after she decided to take the early retirement offer at her company and made her move back to Bangkok. We bumped into each other once or twice a week in the car park. We seemed to be always busy and rushing around doing many errands.
She told me she had this voice in her head which kept bringing details of episodes in her past. Some episodes were quite painful and she thought she had completely forgotten them completely. So, this made her quite angry and she started to quarry with this inner voice. She started to get confused and emotional about what’s been happening. She told me she didn’t want to relive the past so she had to fight to stay in the present instead of being sucked back to the reality of the past. Living in two worlds of reality at the same time has destabilised her calm composure and sense of reality.
I listened to her flowing explanation in complete silence as it was quite difficult to follow her trains of thoughts. Finally, she told me in confidence that she had psychic abilities such as she could see and hear things other people couldn’t; sometimes she would see pictures of the future but she wouldn’t be able to tell the precise timing. I was intrigued and very tempted to ask her about the future of the political and economic situations here. I had my own premonitions of something disturbing in the near future. So, I asked her if she had shared this matter with someone knowledgeable in this subject. She told me that she used to have several psychic friends abroad but it was quite difficult to find genuine psychic people with good intention.
The reason why she was getting more disoriented this week was because several of her old friends and acquaintances had passed away. She realised this occurrence after she kept seeing these people in her mind. These souls were quite sad and she didn’t realise why she was feeling quite depressed for no reason until she heard their voices from the past. They came to see her by presenting themselves in vivid replay of the past. Once my friend realised what had passed recently to these people, she could let go of the heavy depressive weight in her mind and send them compassionate vibes.
I thought she was actually in control of the situation and that she shouldn’t suffer from bad feelings or bouts of sadness. She told me she couldn’t control these vibes which has been sent out by these people. These vibes just floated along and hit their destination; the only way to handle this was to be self aware all the time (which was impossible). This seemed that my friend’s life path was full of mental challenges and difficulties. She told me it’s her destiny or fate so she couldn’t change it. She said sometimes it would take her a few days to find out what was bugging her brain and disturbing her daily life.
Some days my friend would be feeling lost and forgot her list of chores; she would just sit blankly doing nothing for hours. She said she was somehow hypnotised by glitches of energy flows in the environment. It was like swimming in rough sea full of confusing energy flows. So, this could be quite exhausting and demoralising too. I had no idea how to advise her on the remedy of this situation. I was afraid I would catch this kind of condition; I hoped it was not contagious.
All I could do was to be a good listener and give good advise concerning Buddhist teaching. I told her to do some chanting and prayers so that she would be surrounded by good vibes. As all things are impermanent, letting go of attachment to feelings would be quite liberating and free up lots of energy. I think some kind of meditation in action would help in self-awareness more easily.
It would have been quite confusing to me if I couldn’t discern between present reality and re-living in the past. Our mind is full of wonderful capabilities and hidden potentials. I do wonder if people become more immersed in metaverse, what would happen to their sense of reality and self-awareness? Conversation with people who live in metaverse most of the time would be quite strange and impossible sometimes. I dread the day when all brains are immersed in the other designated world of reality controlled by some invisible shadows!
Wishing you peace, good health and prosperity.
Stay strong and cheerful.
