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Maybe I'm at the point where I'm going to go back to the mindset I was in bsck in February. Shit is rough I'm over the bullshit maybe being alone is my best option because all I do is hurt everybody. I'm mad at myself for allowing situation that I'm in to get to be as bad as it is. Moving in with somebody and sharing a life with Kids is definitely some thing that sounds a lot easier than it is . It's annoying constantly being disrespected ignored and all kinds of other shit. I just want to be my own person for once for three years I choose somebody else and now I just wanna choose myself I am even struggling to do that. I only want to move forward I don't wanna go back anymore it's annoying because the only way that I can move forward is for the people that are behind me to be gone and they're not moving as quick as they should. I don't even know what to do with myself anymore to help things get to be better it's only gonna get harder before it gets easier but I'm over this hard bullshit