Its crazy how 11 months has gone by already.
This time of the year is always the scariest for me because I often find myself sitting and trying to be accountable for the things I did, the things I didn't do, and the things I should have done better.
Growth is slow, and sometimes even uncomfortable, but it becomes more apparent in the tiny little decisions that we make daily. As living things we tend to change and there a few things that I decided to drop-off over these past eleven months. Not big dramatic habits, just quiet things that took up mental space in my head without me even noticing.
Let me give a quick gist of the baggage that I have left behind.
The first one was oversharing.
I am a simple person and you could almost call me an open book. I say how I feel in my head and I have no problem sharing my plans, wins and even my losses to people. But honestly, life has thought me to "keep quiet, sometimes, silence saves you."
You are saved from a lot of problem when you practice 'sharing less than necessary'.
My new motto became: Aura for Aura
yeah, I understand that everyone has problems and are fighting silent battles but
if I can be open with you, support you, and make time for you, but you don't seem to see me and reciprocate the energy then I don't force it anymore. I began to prioritize my mental health more and give back the energy that is emitted at me.
I'm not saying I will stop helping or I will help just because I want something in return. But I have just learnt that not everybody deserves your time and energy. I will help if I have the power and convenience to but going out of my way or convenience to do something for a person depends on how they have treated me too. Everyone doesn't deserve full access.
From my introspection, the last thing I could say I dropped was expecting more from people.
This one hurt the most. This is a mistake people often make and your mental health pays the price. I expected certain actions from people and I ended up getting disappointed and hurt. I won't lie, it really messed up my head. I started feeling resentful, bitter and angry.
To make sure that I felt more at peace myself, I stopped expecting people to act a certain way or do good to me.
Letting go of those expectations made my mind much lighter. Now I focus more on accepting people for who they are, not as I want them to be. I remind myself that I can control my actions but I have no control of their own.
These new paradigm has made me feel lighter, less frustrated, and more present.
In these eleven months, dropping these habits has made my life feel more minimalist, not just in physical things, but mentally and emotionally.
I have channeled my energy in improving myself and becoming a better version of myself. I've created space for clear mind, healthier energy, and a positive thoughts. And for me, that's a win.
Thank You for Reading ♥💯
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