I woke up this morning at 7:00 AM remembering a dream I had. I immediately wrote it down in my phone's notes, hoping I could just forget about it. But do you know that feeling where a dream leaves such a heavy impression on you that your heart just aches for the rest of the day? I guess I really got affected by this one.
It wasn't the usual dream where you and I are together only for you to leave, or where your man is just standing in the distance while I watch you go with him. This time, I was the one actually interacting with him. I'll just copy exactly what I wrote right after waking up:
"Apparently, I dreamed of you. This time, I wasn't directly talking to you, but to your husband. In the dream, I had messaged you saying, 'I still love you and I miss you,' clearly feeling that desperate want to have you back. But your partner was the one who replied. He messaged me back, simply saying that he loves you too. With that reply, I knew instantly that I didn't stand a chance. You are with him. And that's the moment I decided to finally stop talking to you, choosing to move on right there in the dream."
After waking up, it made me wonder: Does this mean I won't be dreaming of you anymore? Has my subconscious finally reached an ending, a final conclusion to give up and leave the two of you be?
I wish so badly for that to be the case with my real feelings in my waking life. I hate yearning for you this much.
