03:31 AM
How is your first statement different than your second statement? You said in your first statement you don't believe in atheistic evolution. But in your second statement you wrote, "That microbes from outer space evolved into humans." But that second statement is the same as your first statement about evolution. Because did not the alien microbes evolve too? In other words, still evolution just not on earth. So, your second statement is about a theory of evolution beginning on other planets or whatever in space. That's called procrastinating on what you believe.

Genes do evolve but in science world we call that mutation. That is a type of evolution. But it is not The Big Bang. Like for example, lions evolve into cats. But that is more a devolution as things tend to decline and get worse. Giants can become smaller people. Perhaps God chose humans to be special. Predestination that we would meet, perhaps. But I also believe in freewill too. I believe in destiny over fate.

Vision vs Fantasy

2022-12-05 - Monday - 08:00 PM - Meaning to Life Log.

Fantasy is the inversion of vision. Christ is the ultimate visionary. Satan tempted Christ with a fantasy of ruling the world. What was twisted about it was Christ deserves to because He's a co-creator with God. Well, He is God too by the way. He should own everything. In fact He does. The seed of temptation stems from a grain of truth. The process of turning and inverting a vision into a fantasy can come from the seeds of impatience. The inversion can also come from a departure from focusing on the end result of the vision. The inversion can also come losing faith in the ability to finally get there. When you feel like you cannot accomplish your goals, that is when the seeds of hopelessness can lead you down an inverted path of the shadow of death. Remedy can be found in meditation (prayer), laughter, perspective, companionship, fresh air, venting sessions, sweaty workouts, refreshing naps, gallons of distilled water, juicy pens, rusty books, and especially boring repetitive routine jobs designed to reset your mind. Sometimes, you need to walk away from a situation and come back later. Either you run away or you hire somebody to drag you away from the fog of inversion. It's really hard to see in the mist of all of that fog. Don't wait for the fog to thicken. Gradually, the fog gets thicker and thicker. before you know it, you become lost in the fog. Keep in mind you're not the fog itself. Learn to isolate and compartmentalize what is happening to you. Don't fall for the trap of blaming yourself for the fog itself. Same thing goes for emotions. Life has fog and emotion. You shouldn't blame yourself for the fog. But you should blame yourself for not getting out of the fog. Like with weather and emotions, fog can come and go with the wind. It can be quite unexpected sometimes like a natural disaster. Identify the fog as soon as your vision begins to fade away into the night. Half of the battle is simply in being aware of the incoming fog. Developing a habit of writing down the patterns of how the fog comes into your atmosphere. Start a neighborhood fog watch with those closes to you in order to cultivate awareness and transparency to the struggles and to the successes of fleeing the fog of fantasy. The mist of fantasy does not have to keep you from your vision, your destiny in life.

My Life

2022-12-05 - Monday - 08:05 PM - My Life Log. Some dates.

1980s - I have a paper which says: "It's a girl. 7 lbs 14 oz. 06:41 AM." I'm guessing this is Katie.
1987-07-26 - Mom wrote: "Tubes in ears at St. Vincent." This may have been the exact date tubes were put in my ears. I was two years old.
1987-08-04 - Mom wrote regarding me: "DPT shot (Needs another at age 4-6. Needs Polio booster then too)." Mom: "Dr. Imbrie at St. Vincents also audiological tubes are fine, some hearing tubes, return in 4 months."
1987-10-26 - Mom: "CCD heaving ok, tubes ok."
1987-10-27 - Mom: "Developed a cold, took amoxicallen & ear drops." Not sure how to spell that.
1988-02 - Mom: "Ear infection used ear drops several days. Did not go to doctor. Fever 2 days."
1988-03-30 - Mom: "Dr. Phillips, Meningitis shot."
1988-04-18 - Mom: "Dr. Philips, ear infection, right ear, amoxicallan prescription." Not sure exactly, hard to read the hand-writing.
1988-05-09 - Mom: "Dr. Imbrie. Took one tube out, needs hearing test."
1989-01-03 - Mom: "Dr. Pritchard, early otitis." Mom also wrote after that: "Sept 1988 ears drained by Dr. Imbrie."
1989-04-09 - Sound of Music play at the live theater in Forest Grove. I don't remember who came to see the live action play. Maybe I was there.
1990s - Spaceship Easter Bunny Drawing, Joey Arnold. I drew this probably around 1995 but not sure which year. I drew it on a paper. I wrote out that the Easter Bunny has hens laying eggs in Australia next to his house and spaceship.
1991-01-29 - Joey Coloring. A random picture from a coloring book, 3 weird alien like creatures. I used several colors to scribble color.
1991-01-30 - Mom wrote: "1/30/91 Ricky Arnold age 8 "Picture of Joey."" It's a drawing of me without glasses with my hands up and a smile and messy hair. Green and 2 figures on other side of the paper drawn when and by who, not sure.
1991-01-30 - Mom wrote: "Joey, Jan 1991, age 5, Bart Simpson, copied from Katie's picture." I used a green crayon to draw the eyes and a big stretched out smile. Brown shoes. Black legs. The other side looks different. I'm not sure if I drew the cat or Bart figure on the other side of the paper. Perhaps Katie drew that one or not sure who or when. but it looks like I drew the simple face figure on the first side. This paper only says January of 1991 but I assume same day Rick drew his photo being the 30th day of January of 1991.
1991-02-05 - Joey Pencil Drawing. Mom: "2/5/91 Joey looked at Crystal's duck which has an attached inner tube." On other side,a house, 2 doors.
1991-02-06 - Joey School. Mom: "We discuseed it first." Mom had me circle the word mom. The other words were mit, tom, me, dad, two. Three moms. Not 3 dads which was a movie we saw one time. On the other side I had to circle boo and not Dad, two, see, Mom, free, does, dead. Three boos. Not boobs. That would be weird. This is not an Arnold movie. But I am Hey Arnold. On another paper, I circled two twos. A two two dress just kidding. Not won, see, pea, dad, be. Nothing on the other side of that second paper.
1991-02-11 - Joey Crayon Drawing. Mom: "2/11/91 by Joey, man driving jeep (copied from a toy jeep)." In another drawing, mom wrote: "2/11/91 by Joey, "Me and my cat."" On the other side is 15 smiley faces or people on green grass. I think about 15 people. No date on this side.
1991-02-12 - Mom: "2/12/91 by Joey, person carrying video cassette." Pencil drawing. Other side of the paper, crayon drawing. Blue door on something. Pink smiley face. Possibly other figures in the house or near the door or whatever. I see a blue face person. I see a total of 3 people.
1991-02-12 - Mom: "Boat with person standing on it." My crayon drawing. On another paper, a crayon owl drawing.
1991-02-13 - 09:15 AM - Mom: "2/13/91 9:15am Joey Selfportrait. Dollhouse." Pencil drawing. Man waving right hand and arm. A dollhouse with person in it or something. A door or something of the dollhouse. A second drawing of another self protrait, Mom wrote: "2/13/91 Joey selfportrait 9am."
1991-03-15 - Mom: "3/15/91 Joey age 6, sun with planets going around it." I drew it with a pencil. No colors. Just simple 6 circle like shape planets circling a sun.
1991-09-16 - Playing Basketball. I drew a person shooting a ball towards a basketball hoop and stand. On the other side of that paper is an orange two-headed person on water. Above that is 4 people in 4 orange airplanes. Perhaps not a two headed creature. But it looks like it.
1991-10-01 - Cars Bridge Drawing, Joey Arnold. I drew cars and people on a bridge over water. In the sky was an airplane. On the other side of that paper I drew buildings, people, birds on a limb, fish in water, an airplane.
1991-12-23 - I drew 4 people with long legs next to a tree. The following letters were placed next to each person from shortest to tallest: J, M, D, N. I believe these letters represent Joey, Mom, Dad, Nathan. I was six years old. I was two months from my seventh birthday in 1992. In another drawing, I drew Nathan playing with his father Jim (my uncle). In a third drawing, I drew the father and son duo playing again but this time I included bleachers with the following sitting in them: Crystal, Joey, Ricky, Katie, Mom. I just used the first letter to their names.
1992-04-17 - Indians Tree. Indians Fish. Two comic stories. I'm seeing at least these two main stories represented on ten to thirty pieces of paper. I was seven years old. At least 2 stories or perhaps it is just one big story. Perhaps more than two main stories. Some the papers don't have dates but appear to fit in with the papers that are dated. In Indians Tree, you see the Indians represented as stick figures I used to draw until I was like eight. I drew Indians with sticks or horns coming out of their heads. You can see their teepee homes. They go to a tree. They climb the tree. The jump off and onto a mountain. In Indians Fish, the tribe of Indians go to a river, lake, or whatever of water was and they went fishing there. I think that is basically it for those two stories I drew. There were other drawings which were not stick figure people perhaps from 1993 or after that at the earliest. Some of themes to those drawings may include basketball, computers of mine, etc. I also have a fire story I wrote.
1992-05-19 - Superman Mt. St. Helen Forest Grove Comic, Joey Arnold, several pages. In these series of drawings, I drew Superman blowing ash away from Forest Grove to save the day. The ash cloud came from Mountain Saint Helen. The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles are in this. I drew out the people in this one instead of drawing stick figures. This was in May of 1992. I was drawing stick figures in my Indians comic in April of 1992. That was just a month earlier. It's possibly I started drawing out people in better details when I was trying to draw in more detail. So perhaps I went back and forth between the two styles depending on what I was drawing. When I was drawing a more comic style, i would prefer drawing stick figures as that was faster to draw. But for important drawings, I started drawing out the people in more detail.
1992-05-23 - Spaceship Drawing, Joey Arnold. Mom wrote on this paper: "Spaceship 5/23/92. This man opened the door so that the little ship could get out." You see different people inside the ship. I was eight years old. I was watching NASA videos which we were renting out. I was getting into space around that time.
1993 - Basketball. I drew with pencil two hoops, one man blocking or dunking. One ball close to the hoop in the air. One man shooting. A third man behind him trying to block the ball.
1993-03 - I drew land, a scribbled out figure, spikes.
1994-04-20 - TBN drawing. Mom: "Disnplay on the wall of TV studio." Last Supper. Saul falling over from the bright sun. Noah and the Ark. 3 people sitting at a TBN desk. Lion. Jacob's ladder dream, he is sleeping on the rock as a pillow. Jesus on the cross. Mom wrote: "Joseph of Genesis." Books or whatever. Piano. Door. Stairs. Angels. Basically a TBN set for their Praise The Lord show at night. This was drawn on the back of Kumon Math. I would watch TBN sometimes in the 1990s.
1994-09-21 - Mom signed Crystal's AWANA Cubbies Balloon Book. Crystal attended Cubbies on this day.
1994-09-28 - Crystal completed the AWANA Cubbies Balloon Book, signed by Mrs. Huntington, 648-4870. Several signatures and some looks like it says Mr. and not Mrs. Perhaps just a typo or maybe the husband did sign some of them. But the last signature said Mrs. Crystal attended Cubbies on this day as well.
1995-06 - Summer Reading Program - Forest Grove City Library. My name was written on a red paper. Read! Blast Off With Books. School at home. Age or grade in September of 1995, 4th grade. I was entering grade four according to this paper. Goal of how many books to read the summer of 1995 was ten. That is what was written by I'm guessing mom wrote filled this form out. This paper also had a calender of events for that summer. After review, I can say I don't remember any of those shows at the library. I mean, I have some memories of some but perhaps from other years from the 1990s. From based on just the titles of the events, it aint ringing no bells inside my head of memories. No books were listed but perhaps I read some at least.
1995-08-03 - Summer Reading Program Deadline - Forest Grove City Library. Perhaps I didn't read too many books or any. Well, on the red paper, there were no books listed.
1996-08-07 - Mom wrote: "Poofer cat ear mites. March 97 Bi-Mart medicine."
1998-03-23 - This was the date found on the yellow envelope. Inside this envelope were items dated 1998-06-07 and 1998-06-14 and/or possibly other dates. Well, some items were not dated. I think the drawings of mine had no dates on them. I drew a comic of Adam & Eve on computer printer paper. A different type of printing paper than the usual kind of the 2010s.
1998-06-07 - This was a date of an item and/or items relating to my Pastor Dan Kennedy of CCBC. Dan wrote Jesus Christ is Lord. This must have the title to a sermon series he was doing that Sunday or for a series of Sundays. On the papers it said to see the booklet on the Trinity.
1998-06-14 - This was a date of an item and/or items relating to my Pastor Dan Kennedy of CCBC. Lip Service.
1998-07-03 - My mom turned 47 years old as she was born in 1951. I made her a birthday card. On the cover I wrote that the two Ms in mom were two McDonald's buildings. Her initials is MM for Marilyn Morehead. That is her maiden name, her surname name, Morehead. She was born into the Morehead family. People called her M&M. Not Eminem. Not the candy M&M but close enough. Inside the card I wrote the following poem or song, "Happy birthday, mother day, anniverity, and don't for get 4th of July." Anniverity, I mean wedding anniversary. I just repeated that line like five times for the birthday song of mine for my mom. I was 13 years old. I wrote my Joey Letter J and Hook Symbol. I wrote out my name, Joseph Scott Arnold. I also wrote: "Mom wash dishes everyday while dad eats chips everyday watch TV or play while mom lays. Dad breaks his back from a log, then we all go back to work. Hellow Mom, you are now 47! You have nothing to worry about." On the back of the card I wrote it was a Hallmark card. I wrote: "Joe's and Hallmark's are one of heck of a card cumpanie duo." Cumpanie, I mean company. I also wrote: "George Bush said, 'Read my lips, no more taxes.' You say, 'Read my lips, no more TV.'" I wrote, "everyone loves McDonld's, now two in a row." I made the card possibly on her birthday or maybe a few days before it. Not sure exactly which day but probably in or around June or July of 1998.

FGHS Freshman Year Classes:

2000-08-17 - Thursday - 11:56:16 AM PDT - FGHS, Grade 09, School-Year Schedule. My counselor was Laurels1. Ref: 581X. Age 15. Phone: 357-0477. Student number: 46771. District: 030. School: 610 FGHS. Class: 09. Year: 01. Gender: MALE. Document Name: As400. 8/17/00 FY 01. Printed or something at 11:52:27 AM. It does not say AM. Might be PM. But I assume AM for in the morning right before noon.

First Semester:
1A: Basic Metals. Staff. I think his name was Bruce Lee. Room 1601. Course 501. Section 4.
2A: Careers Education 9. N. Spigal. Room 1116. Course 549A. Section 15.
3A: English 9. Mike Mlynski. Room 1112. Course 100. Section 4.
4A: Health 9. Leftist Rick Brandeburg. Room 1505. Course 451. Second 2. I sat next to Jewel or I forget her name. But she was Mexican. She lived in my trailer park, Rose Grove.
5B: Basic Design. Philip Thias. I think he was from South America. Room 1512. Course 701. Section 8. I sat next to Eric Koelbl and a cute blond girl. I rode my bike to school a few times.
6B: Physical Science. Tonya Jones. Room 2502. Course 350. Section 12.
7B: Pre-Algebra. Joe Baumgartner. Room 1207. Course 306. Section 1.
8B: World Studies. B Bartels. Room 2408. Course 400. Section 1. Salena Willner.

Second Semester:
1A: Woods 1. Chris Higginbotham. Room 1301. Course 641. Section 6.
2A: Career Ed 9. Terry Otto. Room 1202. Course 549B. Section 2.
3A: English 9. Mike Mlynski. Room 1112. Course 101. Section 4.
4A: Physical Science. Tonya Jones. Room 2502. Course 351. Section 9.
5B: Comp Com Career. S. Baker. Room 2110. Course 550. Section 6.
6B: Freshman Physical Education (PE). Sue Fleskes. Room 2002, the front gym and not the smaller back gym. Course 461. Section 17.
7B: Pre-Algebra. Joe Baumgartner. Room 1207. Course 307. Section 1.
8B: World Studies. B Bartels. Room 2408. Course 401. Section 1. Salena Willner.

2000-09-28 - I drew items in my sketchbook for my Basic Design art class during my first month in high school. There are around ten to twenty drawings in that sketchbook mostly or entirely from September and October of 2000. Perhaps some of the 30 sheets are missing. I didn't count how many are there. I drew on both sides sometimes. But I didn't draw on each paper. But up to like 60 drawings. I wrote that it was a total of six hours of work. If I did ten drawings per hour, that would be like 60 drawings. But it looks like less than 60 drawings here. Some of the drawings say five minutes and it would be very simple drawings which could take a cartoonist ten seconds to draw kind of thing. I would sometimes do my homework last minute and would try to take shortcuts to get them done. I also would feel so busy and would try to get like everything done all at once. I even did this in science class too where I would try to pretend as if I tested a bunch of batteries. I would put fake numbers in. In Spanish 2, I used the Internet to cheat on my homework. I got caught because the teacher noticed I was writing out advance Spanish he didn't cover in the lessons at school. I was often trying to rush through school work and homework so I could have more time to play games, basketball, make videos via camcorders, write, draw, etc. I was basically being dishonest. I was giving myself a bad reputation due to the fact that I was a workaholic in many ways. But the impression I gave was that of a lazy person. Sometimes the busiest people will come across as distracted, lazy, all over the place. It's a lack of focus as vision is perverted into fantasy.
2003-02-09 - Garbage Central Drawing. I wrote on this: " Brought to you by Storms 'R Coming Enterprise." This comic was my adaptation of a Billy Graham track diagram illustrating the sin gap between man and God which only the cross can bridge. My drawing has people saying things like let's climb the mountain on our journey towards Heaven. People try to be good enough to earn their way into Heaven. I had an Osama Bin Laden parody like figure saying we should dig all the way through the planet and exit that way. I drew out a man with a shirt which reads One Way. The man is pointing. I also had a sign that read "Friday Everything Will Be Burn The Hell Co." One man said, "The mists and clouds look fun." I drew a Heaven's Gate.
2022-06-09 - Thursday - Funeral - Dwight C. Pickett Memorial. Larry drove me and my mom to this funeral. We stayed at a hotel in Seattle. We returned home Friday. I took a few photos. I mentioned the event on my daily blog.