12:06 AM - Discord
I wanted to go into the shed and look for some of my old VHS tapes, the Arnold Attic. In 2017, I flew from Vietnam back to America. I went back to the same trailer that I grew up in where my dad still lives in. I went around the house trying to find my tapes which I left in a suitcase by the counter. I told him to keep it before I left for Vietnam in 2012. So, I got back and could not find it. I was trying to tell him my videos were inside the suitcase. Well, I believe my tapes were thrown in the shed which probably means mildew or what have you. It can get cold in the shed and sometimes wet. But my dad also had roommates living in what was once my old room. And his stuff was in the shed and he was telling me not to disturb his things in the shed. Part of me wanted to wait until I could get into the shed to look for the videos. But I eventually decided on Martin Luther King Jr Day, on Monday, the 15th of January of 2018 to hop on a bus and go live with my mom and step dad. So, I decided not to say goodbye and I just left. Because I felt like he was choosing them over me. I felt like he was standing up for me. I was not happy with that. Jorge Peralta is my online friend.

No. I didn't find my videos at my dad's. They might be in the shed. Had I stayed longer, I would have eventually found out. The roommates went on to move out later on. But I also wanted to look for videos at my mom's place. And I ended up finding videos here at my mom's. Yeah, my dad renovated the trailer a few times, space number 163 of the Rose Grove mobile home park. AKA the ghetto. The trailer was manufactured in 1983 or 1984. Regarding Tiffany Cumbo, who's arm is that? Probably her dad's arm, Don. That's my dad's name too. She was born in 1986. She died in 2003. I would always say I met her in 1990. But looking back now, maybe we met in 1989 or 1991. I would say I met her before 1992 for sure. We were friends. Many adventures, me, Tiffany, Bill Bailey, etc. She moved away around 1998 or something. Me and Bill found her one day in 2001. She then was going to my high school in 2003. And then I was going to call her on the same day she ended up dying on. I would eventually be opened to making videos with you. But not right now. I would work on the Arnold Attic for years. I want to be focused on the things I'm doing. I don't want to get too distracted. I have some broken tapes I need to like put back together. But they probably don't have any home videos on them. I've gone through around 200 to 300 video tapes here. But many of those tapes don't have home videos on them. But I was trying to go through each tape to make sure. I've also been trying to scan every single photo we have. I have boxes labelled Scanned. I scan drawings, writings, pictures, etc. I know I can't scan everything, so I try to prioritize which things to scan first. Eventually, I have to get to a stopping point in the scanning and everything. The videos that are not home videos are either movies you buy from the store or some of them were recorded via a VCR. I have shared some of it with family off and on for years. You writing to me is not a distraction, because you are helping me when you choose to make videos on me. I believe in what I do but my 2 sisters would sort of say otherwise or so it seems over the years that they would say I was dwelling too excessively in the past which I agree would be counterproductive. My mom sort of is appreciative and have said such at times that she is happy with what I do. I imagine you might not be British after all. Nick Becker was doing a documentary about me in 2010, he went to that same trailer I grew up in. He filmed me and my dad. I've never seen those videos. Nick knew me from high school. He ran into some of my videos on YouTube. He wanted to help tell the story about the Arnold Attic. It was possibly similar to what you are doing. Which heavy set guy? Nick is skinny and has glasses. I was in a video called Metal Gear Joey. There is a man in that video who is heavy set. I tried contacting him several times. No response. Without help, it simply takes longer. I wrote an article which I titled, "I Killed Blake Webb." You probably want to know why I would do that. But I was reposting the idea behind the original article. I made sure to add much needed context in the first paragraph of this reposting of an older article.

01:07 AM
I published the original article in 2010 after Blake Webb died. I was nearby when he died. I felt guilty like I could have saved him more so than Tiffany Cumbo. I went around saying I murdered the guy. People on Facebook were not happy with me. the female pastor at that Salvation Army church, Moore Street, had me sit down in her office. And she was telling me how people were concerned about me. She was asking me if Was ok. I said yeah. I met Blake Webb when I was working at a summer camp in Oregon in 2007. We both went to do Revolution Hawaii after that in September. He didn't really like me. He then became the youth pastor at that church in 2009 in Portland, OR. We became best friends and he told me how he used to not like me but how he likes me now. We would hang out every day. I was the youth pastor assistant unofficially. And some of the youth wanted me to be the new youth pastor after he died but that female pastor said no because "Joey can't even drive." I left out details I guess. I got up and went to check on Blake that morning. A pillow may have been over his head or I am not sure. He might have been dead then. I was not totally sure what to think and I went back onto the couch and waited. I think I ended up falling back to sleep. It felt like an eternity and it may have been twenty minutes. Maybe less than an hour. The man was the owner of the house. Blake was renting a room there. They were also church friends. So, the owner didn't know I was there and he was also gone the past few days and just got back. Part of the reason I felt guilty was I didn't try to do CPR the first time I saw Blake dead on his bed. I was probably in shock or something. I was partly thinking he must be breathing slowly or something. But part of me felt like he was dead already. So, I left him until Mr. Cowell came home. I think that is his last name. He came home and saw that Blake was not breathing. That is when I started doing mouth to mouth and CPR as he went up to call 911. I probably should read that article again as that might be more accurate than my current memory of it. The female pastor said he was having micro heart attacks in his sleep for months or for years and that they kept on getting worse and worse until he eventually died. According to that article I wrote, the space between the first time I saw Blake dead and the time the man saw Blake was dead may have been within minutes. I think the truth is a little bit of both. I checked on Blake a little and then went back to sleep. The first time I checked, I probably didn't check that closely. I didn't want to wake him up. But I felt like it was his fault for sleeping in. I wanted to punish him by letting sleep in. So, I was waiting for him to wake up. We were late. We were going to go play some more basketball in the tournament. Yeah, that was probably the first time seeing somebody die. It disturbed me that people didn't ask me to speak at the funeral. They asked me what happened and I said I went in to see him and he was not breathing. Yeah, 2 funerals, first one was in Oregon ans the second one was in California. And I didn't cry a lot or I don't know exactly. But Mike Kurtz was there and was commenting on how I reacted that day. I think I was mostly in shock. I was already upset in life in general even before he died. I was kind of depressed those past few days before he died. So, in other words, I was already numb. And therefore, there wasn't much more there to be upset at. In a way, I didn't react as much to his death because I was already dead inside in some ways. Which was part of the inspiration behind writing that article stating I murdered Blake via not running into his room that first time to do CPR and mouth to mouth.

01:35 AM
And I started making a bunch of Facebook and YouTube accounts right after Blake Webb died meaning I also felt like I had nothing to lose when I was creating all of these new channels and blogs and profiles and everything as I was already feeling dead inside in some ways. Yeah, there is contrast between a well developed Oatmeal and a Super Woman Rey from Star Wars lacking any character development arch as she is the bestest ever. I enjoy watching DVD Overlord Doom Cock and Red Letter Media on YouTube comment on Star Wars and everything else. People can change and evolve over time. If they don't that's not a story worth telling. I would say many things pushed me over the edge perhaps. I'm not totally sure. I would say the death of Blake was probably a major thing. Like in The Walking Dead, it was one of those big moments. Coming home from Vietnam was perhaps eye-opening and/or long story in some ways.

You could be right that I was becoming more self-aware and self-conscience during high school. I started becoming more confident around that time and more and more into my life in Hawaii in 2007. In some ways, the confidence was growing through into 2010, and then Blake died, and then I went off to work at a camp in California. After that, I was taking some college classes. I was looking for work and didn't find it. So, I moved back in with my dad and worked for him in 2011. I went to Vietnam in 2012. There were times I appeared not as self-aware or what have you. I was surviving at times. Sometimes it was tough in Vietnam. I was becoming a celebrity in Vietnam and it was sometimes going to my head and sometimes not so much. I went through many things like a roller coaster of feelings and everything else. I sometimes felt like I could do anything I wanted in Vietnam. People would treat me badly in life. But then I started seeing how badly people would treat Trump. I partly came back to America because of Trump. I decided to base how i model the way I live my life off how Trump navigates people lying about him and stuff. I started thinking about picking my battles probably around 2016.

We must of had a grey dog or something when I was like five. Then we had a dog named Blacky or something because he was black. But he ran away or was kidnapped. Puffer the cat came around 1992 or something. Other cats include Loud Mouth, Dumb Dumb, Road Kill, Puffer Jr, Honey, Honey Jr. We had a mouse named Cow. I had 2 guinea pigs, Oreo and then the famous Ra Ra Hercules Roberto. I don't think the snakes, fish, etc, had names. The hamster you saw was probably Ra Ra who aint no hamster but fat like hamster. My plan of retribution against ASOV was to simply write about what happened. I forgive my dad. He does landscaping which I started doing sometimes when I was like ten. Around February of 2022, I was building some shelves that you might be able to see in my videos. I agree, things should be addressed, confronted. Some things can be left unfinished. Sometimes people don't know what is left unfinished. That is why it is critical to outline one's life in order to figure out what might be left unfinished. My sisters might believe in not dwelling in the past. I don't necessarily disagree but I also believe in trying to not leave too many things unfinished or what have you.

02:03 AM
I wanted to be Michael Jackson or some kind of public speaker with a moving platform that could go around the world via wheels and balloons, this was when I was eight years old in 1993. I was talking to my brother in 1995 about the desire to make movies. So, dad bought my brother a camcorder for his 14th birthday. His birthday is a few days before mine in February. So, we got that first big camcorder then and have been filming ever since or at least I have been. I used Tiny Chat a few times over the years, it's ok. I could not find it on YouTube. So I dug into my hard drive and pulled it out. That was probably a video that I lost on YouTube. I understand why I said what I said in that interview. I would do things differently now. But I understand why I chose to do it in that way at that time. The commercials they had included that quote, I want to make the world greener with one oatmeal at a time. In some ways, I was mostly only interested in just getting that quote out. I also kind of didn't want to be on that show because I didn't miss a family reunion which was coming up in a week or so for Thanksgiving or something. So in a way I was Ashton Kutcher Punking them as I was not interested in being their show at a pretty deep level. I didn't care if they were going to want me or not. So in other words, I was trolling them. So, people might be right to call me a troll ha. Good idea, have a channel name Arnold Attic with old videos. If I have access to Forty Four Tapes, I may consider changing the name to that one. After auditioning for that show, I went down a hall and this tall model lady had me sign a contract that said Comcast and/or NBC and/or whatever would own my image and likeness. I quickly read it. I don't know the extent of that contract. The lawyer in me would love to know if that contract is still applicable. So, would I be on a reality TV show today? My answer would be that I would need to study the fine print first. But more likely, maybe not so much. I prefer being my own boss and doing my own thing. I would rather live stream like Nerdrotic, Geeks + Gamers, like they do on Friday Night Tights. Are you suggesting I rebrand many channels and have them all named Arnold Attic? Are you saying I should rebrand older videos and not just the channels themselves? A lot of times I would upload videos not wanting people to watch them.

I wanted to George Lucas my videos and then promote them. I am surprised because Dork was mocking me. I was thinking people would not look for me. Dork talked about a few people. I didn't try to find that Batman dude who was also in that same video he did on me. So, by that logic, I was thinking that people would look at me like I was looking at that Batman kid. I looked at Batman and I said ok. But I was not running around trying to find more of his videos. I was feeling like people saw me in the same light as a wannabe Batman or Oatman. When I was a kid, I would look outside thinking aliens or people or something was watching me. What makes some of this hard is some of my stuff is really really good but I feel like a lot of my stuff can be pretty pathetic. I've been writing my autobiography since roughly 2017. I wanted to quickly outline each month of my entire life and then work on condensing that. Every month after the age of five. I've not finished that yet. But sometimes I was trying undermine my own self. My idea is to simply comment on each month first and then highlight certain months later on.