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Fate vs Destiny

2021-10-17 - Sunday - 09:30 PM - Sunday School Log | Gab

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Autobiographical audits can be good to have, that is a main theme in my journals. I'm a journalist. That is a big identity marker inmy life. These were my thoughts during Sunday School. Distraction can come walking in to sit near you. I can neither confirm nor deny what that means to which degrees in positive and negative aspects. The choices we make is a big thing both right and wrong. But not to condone the wrong but rather the process therein.

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When Keith Gordan Green died at the age of 28 on the 28th day of 1982, some wondered, Linda Myers recalled, the will of God and everything. As humamns from our own perspectives, we ask questions like why me or why them? Like, why do good people die young? Why did God let bad things happen to good people? We have many questions like these and more which relates to subjects like fate, destiny, predestination, choices, decisions, habits, good things, bad things, etc.

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The way I approach this is with an open mind, the Bible has been a foundation to my principles since I was 5. I say that to say I'm not for subjective philosophy. I believe objective reality as opposed to the idea of my truth and your truth. but that does not mean I know everything. I believe I do not know everything and therefore must be careful with saying God wanted Green to die. I am not saying God did or did not. I am not going to say what God's will is or is not. Well, I might sometimes present things which may be God's will. But my approach to how I live life is that of trying to interact with life as opposed to being too fixed on a fate that cannot be changed. I believe God wins in the end. But God wants us to be part of it. If bad things happen, it can be our fault. Not to say Green's death was his fault. But I will not say it was not his fault. It could be his fault. To be more accurate and technical, it may be his fault and not his fault at the same time. If a person murders you, it was the fault of the murderer and also the fault of you and the fault of other people and other factors and things. Life is nuance. Life is complex. Was it God's will? I cannot say. I do not want to promote such a view because that has a threat, a potential, a possibility, of promoting ideas like fatalism, pacifism, nihilism, apathy, pride, ignorance, arrogance, depression, inaction, separation, isolation, blindness, etc. I try very hard to encourage interaction in being part of God's story in Jesus name kind of thing. I hold strong to that. When bad things happen, when people die, it can happen for many reasons. It can be and it can not be God's will simultaneously through several levels, versions, fashion, degrees, etc. It is nuance. It is hard to explain. In the end God wins but we cannot always say what that means. And God allows for freewill, freedom, choices, decisions, habits, lifestyles, etc. That is the process in which we approach an opportunity to be part of God's will or not. That is the meaning to life and love through that process and towards an end. Death in the flesh versus death in the spirit. Don't pray for the dead. Do not ever or do not generally? Is 1 John 5:16 talking about the unforgivable sin, the blasphemy of the spirit, is there such a thing? I believe in eternal security, once saved always saved. A contrast between salvation and fellowship. The topic of prayer, of how to pray, of the act of praying, is a deep subject and topic. Pray for the process and don't get lost in the end result too excessively.

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Faith involves steps. That is a good way of looking at it. Two dangerous philosophies are the ends justifies the means and doing something for the greater good. It is not that these ideas have to be bad. But they can lead to a bad end even as it preaches the good end. You can say you can do bad to get to a good end. But what you think is a good end is not. So, instead, do good each step of the way. Faith is taking one step at a time. We can have reasons, excuses, rationalization, justification, both good and bad for our lives and for our views on God, destiny, fate, etc. We can justify why God let things happen. We may or may not be right to different degrees. But we can get lost in making excuses. We can then lose ourselves. We can lose track of personal responsibility, integrity, accountability. I am not saying if we are good enough, then bad things will not or cannot happen. But I will say that is a factor. Not the only factor. We do not live in a vacuum of a universe. We are not isolated of different variables. Other people can do bad and that can hurt us. Does that mean we should do bad? Does that justify doing bad? No. 1 John 5:18 reminds me of no weapons form against thee shall prosper. Shalt not sin at all versus actively versus the state of being a sinner at the level of one's nature and identity. 1 John 5:19 talks about how Satan has power over the earth, he is prince of the air of our realm in a lot of ways. Romans 12, do not be of this world. Forgiveness, asking for forgiveness, Matthew 18. As a kid, I enjoyed being in the adult Sunday School class a few times on and off when we didn't have Sunday school classes for kids and teens. First time I was in an adult Sunday School class might have been when I was around ten years old in 1995. I felt like I was around a lot of smart people which I found interesting. I was curious. I enjoyed studying and reading the Bible. I was also memorizing verses since I was like 6 or 8. So, the one guy with my name partakes in our class these past few years on and off on Sundays. Same kind of thing with me when I was a kid at times.

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Being Honest With Where You Are

2021-10-17 - Sunday - 11:00 PM - Sermon Log | Gab

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Like Sunday School with distraction or it may not be distraction. But this theme of what I call distraction has been happening each Sunday for many months perhaps since like earlier in 2021 if not earlier. So during the first five months of this year, it started and or maybe it started before that but especially after the summer is what I think. But it is hard to say if it is good or bad. But in front of me. I see it. I do not want to contrast or compare or conflate it with a show I am watching, Big Sky. I see Ronald but that is not me. Pretend I did not make a reference. I did not say anything. But to continue the conversation from Sunday School, life is about choices and stuff. But I find it hard to sort out. My excuse, be it good and or bad, is I am busy. But my weakness is if I was asked to. I want to and I do not want to. The best of two worlds. I should talk more about this. I have written about and have talked about related matters going back like twenty years or a very long time. I have many different thoughts about life choices, goals, dreams, etc. I think about it a lot sometimes. But there are so many variables. I want this. But I want that. And what we want in life may not be what we need. And others may not want it. And life can involve compromise. Something can be better than nothing perhaps. Or maybe not. But generally, that is true in theory at least that something is better than nothing. So, act. Participate. Interact. Take it a step at a time. You think you can get this but in reality might only be able to get this other thing. So, you can try and may fail. But at least no regret. I say this to me relating to many things. I am afraid and not afraid. I was choosing to make time to do more. To date more. I am not. That was like a New Years Resolution. I am not making time for that. I make lists. I made lists regarding things I want and do not want in me and others. But am I trying too hard? Do I want too much? Are my standards too high? Am I too closed minded or open minded? More thoughts on this to continue. I am still in deep thought regarding all of it. I am afraid and not afraid. I am many things at the same time. I feel things. I think things. But I am also very busy or not. But I want to finish things first or finish some things first at least.

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I praise God for surprises both good and bad. That is the beauty of life which is an adventure and everything. Life is a winy or whinny road for better and for worse. Haiti. Offering. Music. Testimony video, I Am Second, Lecrae. Video song at the end was from Toby Mac which talked about forgiveness. Be real with God, yourself, others. Confess who you are, where you are from, your weaknesses, where you are currently, and everything. Process is built on top of where you are. Don't lie about where you are as that is counterproductive. 26 in 2014. Oh ok. Sea Hawks did not win since like the 1970s or whenever and not again until 2016. But you keep going in sports and in life. Different kinds of slowness. Some good and some bad. Some might be slow but be actually slow. But others who are slow might not be slower in all ways or might be different in doing things differently at least mentally and emotionally and such, IQ, EQ, etc.

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The girl who sung that one song called Ironic, listen to her, cats are fun, and to a cave of course. Caves are meant for exploring.

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