I spent most of today reading. And no, not reading novels which is absolutely one of my favourite things to do. I was studying. Like, really studying. Although, I kind of mixed it up with reading a novel because as much as I’d like to pride myself as someone who can read for hours on end, I’m truly not that kind of person and if I study for about two hours, best believe I’ll unwind by reading a very non-academic book for thirty minutes or more. So far, it has worked out quite alright for me.
So today, after studying for hours on end, to say I was burnt out would be an understatement. How do I know I was burnt out? The words kept disappearing as I read. Like I’m reading a full sentence but the words promptly vanish the moment I read them and get to the next one. That was my first clue. I felt like I needed to study more so I shook my head rather vigorously and then, my head jammed.
You know when you hear someone say, “The breaks are jammed,” it simply means they’re stuck or can’t function any longer. At least that’s how I interpret it. So, my brain very firmly communicated to me that if I thought it was going to absorb another word from my textbook, then I was a liar and delusional. I have a very fun mind so when I found out that I couldn’t even assimilate a single word, I knew without a doubt that that’s what it was saying to me.
That was my second clue. From experience, I know not to push myself any further because the next clue would be a migraine so excruciating, that I’d regret not paying attention to the last two clues. So, I stood up and did the first thing I do when I’m feeling burnt out and trying to cope with it. If you guessed shower, then you’re absolutely right. I stepped into the shower and let all that tension just wash away.
That’s my first way of coping. I identified that I was burnt out and started finding ways to liberate myself because pushing yourself to that limit is scarcely ever amusing. When I was done, I felt considerably lighter. And then on to my next coping mechanism which, if you guessed it right, is food. I got food together and immediately wolfed it down. Maybe wolfed down is too excited an emotion but yeah, I ate it and already started feeling myself coming back to top form.
And as my final coping mechanism for today, I went to my playlist and searched for good music. I wanted something that I hadn’t listened to in a while and as I scrolled frantically past the hundreds of songs, my eye caught one and I paused immediately. I smiled so hard cause not only was this song an old song, but it used to be one of my favourites.
I first heard Loving You Girl by the Norwegian singer, Peder Elias ft. Hkeem from an Insta live of one of my favourite Korean singers. He had songs playing in the background while he talked to his fans and when I heard this song, I felt this intense happiness. I’m not sure if it was the lyrics or because the rhythm is the kind I usually adore but I was transfixed. Shazamed it immediately and binged on it for weeks.
It doesn’t have a really strong message. It’s just a guy expressing his love for this girl and how much he adores her. Frankly, I didn’t even want to pay much attention to it. I just liked the way it made me feel and so I was like, why don’t I share it?
Lol. That’s a lie. I don’t like sharing songs that I like. I’ve said this before and it’s true. I prefer hoarding to myself and only sharing if I truly like a person and know the person wouldn’t judge and would genuinely appreciate the music. But coincidentally, it rhymed with today’s topic on #AprilInleo prompts which you should totally check out if you haven’t cause it’s almost guaranteed that you would find something that suits your fancy on any of the days.
Yeah, so I decided to shade it and I hope you all enjoy this special song that marks off my weekend. And while you do that, I’ll get back to studying.
P.S: This is your song for next week from my playlist. You know yourself. Lol
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