Can you tell that I’m nearly bursting at the seams in excitement? I guess that would be impossible for you because it’s only the first line. But I’m deeply elated today. Beyond exhausted, and my eyes and body are practically begging me to rest, but I needed to write this because this very day will mark the beginning of a new chapter in my life.
I don’t know if I told you guys something a few weeks back about Will. I said that will is such a force that changes the game for you. Will is more than determination. It’s that understanding that you’ve practically had enough with your status quo, and unless something beyond your control happens, you will never stop trudging ahead.
When I wrote that post, I fell off the very next day. Things weren’t feeling right, and my indiscipline was determined to kill my will before it even had room to blossom. But again that’s something about will, because while other times, I would have just declared that this new phase was not for me, and go back to grappling in the dark, will said that it was okay to fall, but what mattered most was my willingness to get back on my feet.
And so, I got back on feet. And I have not fallen since.
Documenting this because I felt a shift yesterday. In my mind, and in my heart. I’ll tell you something that I think a lot of us may be able to relate to. Just like when you can sense that something bad is about to happen, you can also sense when your life is about to change for the better, and even though I’ve been holding onto hope and optimism in the last weeks, it was only yesterday that I truly felt that my life was about to change.
Last night and today marked the beginning of that change. In the most amazing way. Of course, I’m not nearly where I’m supposed to be. In fact, this is the first half step in a journey of a hundred thousand steps, but boy did it take me a minute to get to this half step, so forgive me if I have this burning need to shout from the rooftops.
I promised myself that this would be a short post, and I’m determined to stick to it, but I’ll just tell you this. If you read this, and you’re in that phase where you began something new, but you’re questioning yourself because it’s taking a lot from you, and it’s harder than it seems, keep showing up, please. Rest. Reset, but please, Restart.
I think of a scripture in the Bible that says “When God turned away the captivity of Zion, we were like them that dream.” That’s how it happens. Like a dream. The snap of a finger. I honestly can’t wait to see how far I go, especially because I know I'll go really far.
Okay, all. It’s just past 10 pm here, but let’s call it midnight for the pure reason that I’ll be sleeping almost immediately after I post this. Bye, everyone. Stay positive, always.
Image is mine.
