Couldn't Be Put Together If I Tried

I think even the most structured routines get messed up at times. I believe in goals just as much as I believe in the existence of something else happening. Something other than what we bargained/planned for. It’s why when I set out my to-do list, I put little gaps in between. Because, you never know, right?

What do I practice in real life and on a normal basis outside school life? Something spontaneous. What I crave and admire in real life? Something structured. I admire those people who may not have gotten it together, but their lifestyle lets you know that they are definitely heading there. And that’s because they have their whole routine together. Wake up, pray, work out, eat, set about their jobs, read a book/ see a movie, nap for a while, eat again, text here and there, take their night bathe, off to bed. Rinse and repeat. It sounds boring and all. But, I won’t lie, it’s something I like.

And it doesn’t always have to be productive like this. Even if your day comprises of waking up, taking a shower, curling up in bed and reading a delightful thriller, kicking your feet all day, it’s your routine and it’s alright, because that’s your structure. I promise you, if I didn’t have to work hard for every dime I get and I didn’t have school and a career to build, I’ll be just like this. I low-key crave a point like this in my life. Where I can live the way I want and not caged by rules and structure and the regimented life I currently live.

It’s just like @nhaji01 and I when we plan lofty travel goals, and trips we plan to take. Then after daydreaming, we remember that we’ve got to be able to afford this lifestyle, so we let out a huge sigh and go back to the work that we hope to pay us big in the future. I’m low-key praying every day for her that she gets rich early on and can afford me that lifestyle, but it’s fine, while my own is still cooking, I can wait for her, lol.

Anyway, I’m saying this with lots of emotion because I should be curled up in my bed seeing a movie, watching TikTok or just sleeping. But I’m in class currently, preparing for an all-night study session for the fifth night in a row. I’m not exactly complaining. I chose this life for myself, so I’ve got to see it through till the end. It doesn’t make it any easier, though. And then I saw the Ladies of Hive questions for this week, so even though it’s quite late, I knew I had to answer it.

Do you believe in having a structured routine or a more spontaneous approach to life?

I feel like I couldn’t have a structured routine, all put-together if I tried. And this is because, at the core of my being, though I admire structure, spontaneity is where I always see my life shaping to. If I can put it quite clearly. I want to have a spontaneous life, but I want also to be able to have a structured life and routine when I want to. I want to be able to lay down my routine and follow it judiciously, but at the same time, I live my life knowing that I’m not defined by it. A well grounded life, if you ask me. But I should be able to afford it first, right?

Jhymi🖤

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