She climbed the stairs with her face so pale, She walked so slowly with her eyes partly scanning everyone that passed as though they knew what was wrong.. "Is it obvious yet" she asked herself, Her mind was so occupied that she barely noticed the girl in front. She bumped into her and they both wavered "Babe, wetin na? You no dey look front " The girl said with so much disgust, Hissed and grumbled as she walked away. She knew she was addled, She was looking but yet she couldn't see. She wondered if he was feeling this same Way, Of course he Wasn't. He is probably in his office attending to patients like every usual day. The way he sounded on phone when she called earlier to inform him was still vivid in her mind. He was indifferent about the situation. He was mute for a while before he said "I would transfer some money into your account, and send you a doctor's contact. You know what to do." It was so unlike him. Was I expecting him to dance to the news? She thought.
This was a medical doctor who is just at the tip of his career. He is not ready for this or probably did not include me in his future plans. She could remember how bright his face was when she finally agreed. They have been dating for a year now and he had agreed to wait until she was ready considering the fact that she was still chaste.
He was extremely Caring, He knows just what she needed and would get it for her without her requesting.He was very handsome and easy to love. He would usually say to her "Having you in my life is more than a million naira credited into my account" and he would tell her jokes and play the buffoon to make her laugh when they were together without any show of lasciviousness. She had agreed because she loved him and though hidden she could see the sadness in his eyes each time he tries to kiss her and she turns away.
They had made sweet love that night. It all started in the shower while she was bathing, He stood by the door and pleaded to watch, She had told him to join her instead.They were both naked in the shower as they chatted, Laughed and Splashed each Other and then he suddenly stopped, their eyes were glued to each other and the next thing she felt was his cold lips on hers. He kissed her so Passionately and she responded with indescribable gracefulness that one would think she could do it in her sleep. It didn't seem like a novice kisses, She kissed so perfectly or so he thought.
His hands cupped her breasts gently and caressed her nipple. She began to pat his back gently as she didn't know what to do and then she rubbed and moved her fingers around his back. It felt so hard like a moulded block, He was indeed the complete description of masculinity. He pressed himself against her and she could feel his cock on her skin. It was hard as she felt the head of his penis tingle unbearably, it felt hot and swollen. She tried to move but it felt as if her body was tied down by invisible ropes. His hands felt the warmth of her vagina, It was surprisngly warm even with the cold water falling on it from the shower. His fingers were all but sucked inside. She heard herself moan a little as he moved her hands down to his cock and then sucked her nipple gently. She felt her blood rush through her veins, It was the strangest sensation; Something that went beyond simple sexual pleasure.
He carried her gently and leaned her back on the wall of the bathroom as he gently slipped himself inside her. He began to move with a slow rotation of his hips, She felt pains as she gripped his back and let out a long deep moan. He spread her legs wider, then he thrust deeper again and then again and then he didn't stop till he was satisfied. Hot tears eluded her eyes as she felt blood drop from her vagina. She saw the water spewing from the shower wash the blood away as he carried her away from the shower and contentedly wiped her body dry with a towel. He whispered those words into her ears again "Having you in my life is more than a million naira credited into my account" And they both slept off wrapped in each others arms.
Now, just that one night of pleasure has brought her this displeasure. When she first found out she was pregnant she was shocked, Albeit a shock that centered her like never before. She had missed her period and was nauseous for some weeks.
She was so horrified that she didn't know what to do. She couldn't tell anyone about it either. He was the only one she thought of after the blood test confirmed she was a month and three weeks pregnant. After listening to what he said when she spoke with him on phone, She was determined to put her life back on track rather than wallow in self pity and regrets at the bad decision she had made.
Keeping it was not an option as she was just at the beginning of chasing her dreams. She was a fresher who just got admitted to study law in one of the most touted universities. This would not only bring her a stigma but it would erase her dreams like she never slept. Her journey to this hospital he directed her to was a long and lonely one ; A very profound experience that she was not going to forget in a long time. She had bought the things the doctor requested when she called him on Phone; Sanitary pads and a small case with wheels and she took one of her old gowns with her.
Now here she was, Walking to the doctors office with guilt and an unbearable surreal of how the doctor was going to look at her when he sees how Young she was. She knocked on the door gently and a baritone voice said from within "Come on, it's opened" She pushed the door slowly and entered his office. "Oh, miss Ngozi, How are you? What kept you? I've been waiting for you. How was your trip? " he said at once without waiting for response to each of his question. They talked for a while as he enquired if she had not eaten as he has said, He checked the result of the test and the things he had told her to come with. He called for a nurse and said "quickly change into the gown and come with the nurse to the lab" he barely finished saying this before he left the office hurriedly. She got scared and couldn't control the tears, She had no idea what she was about facing and whatever it was, It was the best decision she could make.
The nurse led her to the lab. She looked like someone who was going for judgement in a Court, with her silk gown flying in the air as it was very light. She entered and laid down on the table facing up as directed by the nurse. "Won't i be injected to sleep?" She asked the nurse, "No. Them no dey sleep for this one, This one na D and C " she muttered. What she understood from what the nurse has said was that there wasn't going to be a numbing medication. She was going to see the process and feel every bit of the pain. The doctor entered wearing gloves. He told her to keep her legs widely separated and this made her remember how he separated her legs while he was making love to her. Again tears escaped her eyes and this time it didn't stop. The tears flowed co-operatingly from both eyes. The doctor placed a tenaculum to keep her cervix and uterus in place and then forced his hands inside to check.. It was so painful that she started crying like a baby whose candy was snatched. He then inserted a long tube and started removing tissue from the Lining.
This painful process continued for a while and Ngozi cried even more. It felt like something was being dragged from her inside, The pain will disappear for a while and then it would come at once again even more painful. Then the doctor used a curette to scrap the lining in other to remove residuals. She could see other cone-shaped rods of increasing size and wondered if they would be inserted in her vaginal as well. She loathed him even more, He was supposed to be here to give her love and support she thought. Having sex for the first time was painful but it was no pain compared to what she was going through at the moment. She felt the doctor cutting something from her body and she gripped the nurse as she gnashed her teeth and yelled in pain. "Shut up o" The nurse said sternly and held her both hands tightly. She felt her life stop as the pain held her breathe. She gasped and cried even more. "It is finished" she heard the doctor say as he cleaned her. He stood arranged himself and left the lab. She sat up not feeling any pain again. Is this how it is? " She thought "So quick and yet so painful, So painful and yet the pain disappears at once" She was glad it was a success. She changed into the clothes she wore before, Paid the doctor and left for the park.
On her way back she wondered if she was going to take the drugs the doctor had given to her. He had said they were antibiotics and that she shouldn't miss any one of them. She felt so ill, she had severe cramps and was spitting all through the journey. She wanted to sleep it all off but she knew she was going to dream. She was going to see a baby crying. She has just murdered, she thought. She has eradicated an innocent child from being born. A child whom she had no idea what destiny awaits. She has terminated the life of a pure and impeccable bairn. Though it was just a foetus but to her there was no difference. This was going to haunt her for a while if not forever.
