I want to try to write a post where the pain of grief doesn't show, but it has been quite complicated for weeks now. Even music feels different since my dad's departure. I know that this is something temporary because I am a strong person with a lot of will to live, but I have found refuge in some things that I would have never understood before, and in this post I talk about it...
Many times I have even made fun of people who talk to plants, and although I have not gone to that extreme, now I find passion in the existence of plants and I appreciate flowers very much. It's amazing how at 34 years old I don't know the name of most of the vegetation around me, but they have always been there, and now I am beginning to observe them.
The new way of living that we are learning day by day since that fatal moment that changed our lives has led us to make changes at home and has also made us visit many people who have helped us in the grieving process. Maybe inside I am not ready for social life and strangely every place I go I let myself be carried away by the magic of the plants, especially by the beauty of the flowers. I can appreciate them for hours and see every detail in them.
What has surprised me the most is that I can find peace and forget the problems in those moments, just like when I was making music, so at the moment I find them a great way of spiritual healing. I consider them perfect for me, because they are living beings, I feel their life and the best thing is that they do not tell me how I should act in this moment of grief. Plants just listen and become great allies in the midst of sadness.
Regarding nature my passion has always been the sky, the clouds, even here in the community I think I started posting about clouds, and yes, sometimes I have shared beautiful pictures of flowers, but never with the passion with which I write today. I feel I must convey this feeling to my mom, the one most affected by this family event, I hope to take her to a special place soon where it's just the flowers and us and possibly a guitar to get back to the music in the best way.
Whenever I share photos I always close by saying that I am not a photographer, just a lover of capturing special moments for me. These photos were taken with my Tecno Pova II and have a subtle editing that I have done with PhotoDirector App. I hope everyone liked them and I personally hope that this passion will last me a lifetime and keep growing, because plants are definitely lives, and it took a death to make me realize it...
