She admitted to herself about not being able to update her diary for a while because of how lazy she had been feeling. Picking a pen seemed like a very difficult task.
She threw herself on the sofa and coiled herself as if she needed it to absorb and take away all she was thinking about.
She thought about how emotionally stressed she had been for the last couple of days.
"You can never know how deep the minds of humans are". She said to herself as she got up to find a distraction from the thoughts that were already getting to her.
Earlier that day, Mitchell got to listen to a voice recording of her partner. He practically painted her as the worst woman he had ever met, and anyone who was there while he spewed all that came out of his mouth would think that Michelle no longer existed on earth and was indeed the worst. He said all of it like she was never going to know anything about it.
Truly all that he had said may not have reached Michelle if not for her sister who was present at the scene. She was able to come up with the idea of recording all that had been said. she had also known that no matter how anyone explains this to Michelle, she wouldn't believe it and this had happened several times.
Michelle had always found it hard to believe because her partner always appeared and acted like someone who would never do such a thing, he would act like she was all he needed to exist but when he gets behind her, he turns into a backstabber because of his inability to take responsibility for his actions. All these continued until the day she listened to the voice note.
At that point, Michelle realized that the reason why she had always left was because of her inability to come with his nature which is synonymous to manipulation.
She had expressed how she felt by crying, getting angry, and making her mind known without hiding her feelings. She knew that admitting to her denails was the only way she could address it, and it would only hurt more to keep being in denial.
She tried not to blame herself because of her tendency to always trust people, taking them as herself. She realized that she only knew herself and no one else, the initial thoughts were wrong all along.
She would always accept things she shouldn't accept due to the reaction she gets each time she summoned the courage to stand up for herself and express how she felt, it was always seen as being disrespectful. Michelle however who avoids issues most time would let it all go hoping that it all takes a different turn with time. Indeed it does take a different turn sometimes, other times she is left to just let it all go because she knows that she only has control over herself and not the situations around her.
