January 05, 2023
My day started well. After waking up I read a book entitled Bible Stories. I read the story how Jesus is being betrayed by a traitor, denied by a friend, condemned by enemies and rejected for a robber. The story leave a mark in my heart as I really felt pity on Him. Have you experienced a feeling that you wanted to cry out of pity to the character you are reading or watching? But most of the time it was just a fiction, but this is different from it because it is a real story happened in the past. He really offered His life for us.
Reading early in the morning is something I did as part of something new for my spiritual life this 2023. I didn't promise to do it day by day but I really hope so I could continue it. It serves as my devotional. I prefer to read it so that I have something to tell with my son when he wakes up.
As usual, I prepared food for me and my son. After breakfast, I grab my phone and check my Hive. I was happy seeing my post last night that it was curated by ocd. I told myself that my sacrifices last night is worth it. I supposed to post it early in the evening but my data connection is very low and it just give me an error response. I tried to load another data to other data provider but it gave me the same result. I just found out that all of us experienced a very low data connection last night. But fortunately I was able to post it before 11 in the evening. That was my first late sleep last night because I was so eager to post that blog.
I am also happy when I opened and read a notification from 
I even commented that I hope I can do it again this month.
But how? This hope already ended just a minute after that comment. I don't know what push me to open hivebuzz.me and check my PUM only to find out this.
Oh no! I almost cry. Why I was not able to power up last Tuesday, January 03. It is my desire to power up everyday to participate the PUM. I am even confident that I did it but how? Oh how this happen. I tried to remember what I did that day and it didn't give me a valid reason why I wasn't able to power up.
I already experienced a failed PUM before but I clearly remember how I forgot to power up. But this time, I can't really remember. I wanted to cry but for what? Even if I will, it won't give me a picture that January 3, will have that two arrow as a sign of successful power up. So, I just comfort myself to do PUM again next month.
My day just went and I did the laundry. I am happy doing it so tomorrow I will be free to do what I want as I don't have any big house chores to do. I am done and it's almost lunch time. I went to our neighbor to pick my son who is playing with other kids.
When I turned back home, I found out that my folded clothesline was down in the ground. I wanted to run but then I remember my son and I shout calling his name to hurry up.
I asked my son's help but still the clothes were all dirty. They are full of sand since they are all still wet.
I picked them all up with a heavy heart. I wanted to cry why the things go wrong this day but instead of crying I let my son get a basin and I put all the clothes there.
I felt so hungry as it is already our lunch time but my other mind wanted to finish it first. I grab an apple and eat it for a while and I wash the laundry again to remove those sand in it.
My sister in law passed while I am washing it again and I told her how sad I am with a frowning fave because my foldable clothesline was down in the ground making the clothes dirty again because of sand. I never expect that she would laugh out loud. She is laughing at me while I felt so bad because of what had happened.
Oh no! Two circumstances that almost made me cry today. I just hope that in the rest of the day something good will also happen.
Have you experienced a failed PUM too? How do you feel? How do you deal with it?
How about a clothesline dropped in the ground? Will you laugh at loud or cry out loud? Oh only those doing the laundry without drier could relate.
Anyway, this is just a rant and talk for today that I just wanted to share to let those emotions out. Thank you for reading, it seems that someone is listening to me.
